Hello all,
I am opening this journal as my old one on this forum is buried, and maybe it should remain that way.
I want to focus my thoughts on a new slate.
I’ve been away for a while.
Since my last update, I’ve found myself caught in a rather cataclysmic chain of events.
It’s difficult to truly weigh what I’ve gained against what I’ve lost, but as I write this, I am cautiously optimistic.
After several years bordering on losing my connection with the spiritual, I experienced a rough awakening in 2022.
Since then, I’ve been recovering and revisiting my occult studies.
I had intentions of returning around the time of my recent name change, but this was delayed due to something dramatic that happened about half a year ago, from which I am only recently recovering.
The purpose of this journal is to gather and write down my thoughts as I navigate through many turbulent changes.
Part of me wanted to abandon this account and start anew with a different identity due to the dramatic shift.
However, I decided against it as it would likely be against the rules, so I settled for a name change instead.
I have undergone a lot since I left this forum.
I don’t feel connected to my old thoughts anymore.
Yet, I feel like a more refined version of the person I was around 4 years ago when I left.
Perhaps some context is in order, albeit briefly.
I underwent a paradigm shift and began studying to become Catholic.
However, a few months into it, I abandoned this path when I realized that Christian dogma seemed more prone to promoting obedience than fostering righteousness.
To me, action should depend on principles of righteousness, not blind obedience to a higher power, as such obedience can impede righteous action. It’s not enough for me to be told an action is right; it must be justified by a rigid chain of reasoning.
This all plays a part in my identity crisis, which I will likely explore in this journal. As my paradigm shift turned towards Christianity, my interest in the occult took a backseat.
Lastly, I’m not one for flattery, but I am quite happy to be back here, I’ve been part of many occult communities, but only this one has proven itself to be truly solid.