So I decided to do several evocations today. Still I still havent been able to see the spirits yet… but I did feel a lot of shifts within me. A lot of the spirits asked me to give my hands to them outside the circle and I did and I started feeling a rush of power from them.
I went about my day and I decided to take a nap, and everything started from there. I started feeling like I didnt recognize who I was, like I am still experiencing a big sense of loss of ego and the problems that I had I feel like I dont have them anymore. But I started getting really concerned and started shivering and my hands started to feel heavy and I felt as if I was choking… The only experience I can compare this too is an LSD trip, which has been the things that has given me the most profound change in my life, but LSD is like very uncontrolled… This feels like uncontrolled but in a controlled way. I dont know if this makes sense.
But I am getting a bit scared, I asked them am I possessed and they said no, we are just with you and we are realigning your life. Its weird but I just feel limitless and the moment and fearless but I feel a sense of not letting go because seriously for an instant I asked myself “Who the fuck am I”? So much so that I had to see myself in the mirror to recognize myself again.
Up to this point I really didnt believe in magic to be honest with you. But after what is happening right now, I can seriously say this is the most potent thing I’ve ever done.
So how do I handle this situation guys, do I keep evoking? Do I just relax and let loose? What do I do?