November 7, 2020. My fictitious name is Makkos and I have been a longtime lurker on this forum. Today I am going to be talking about why the most powerful magicians are in hiding and keeping the most powerful occult knowledge to themselves, or at least they are attempting this.
I have been a practicing magician for roughly a year. I am still very much a beginner understand that I will never be a “master” at any form of magick. This is quite impossible. There is always much to learn. And yet the power that has come through extensive practice and studying is small compared to the power that is yet to come for me. I am trying to explain that I am very powerful yet I am only just beginning. I look forward to seeing what is next in this path.
I started my journey with the Goetia. I followed the book to a T and summoned Belial. I can still remember how hard it was to summon him. I remember how wordy the ritual was and I remember going into the ritual thinking that nothing was going to happen. By now I have worked with many demons and can only hope to finally reach the demonic plane one day. Until that day, however, I have much to do.
Now this next piece of inspiration should serve as a reminder that YOU too possess this innate magickal ability that comes with each and every person. To keep things short, I will say that stumbled upon an absolutely insane business deal. I now own 50% of a corporation with a very famous man and will be working with some very famous people. I will not be saying what industry this business is in for privacy concerns. This opportunity presented itself in such a manner that to this day I am in shock and disbelief. I did indeed perform rituals for this exact purpose, but I never truly expected the results to come about in this particular manner. I am stunned. And yet all thanks goes to Belial, Bune, Lucifer, Halphas, and a host of other demons that exposed me to some much needed spiritual growth. I have learned if you are willing to work your ass off and expose your talents to the world that you will be rewarded appropriately especially with the help of magick. Below is the kind of road that I took to get to where I am now.
March 2020:
-------> Summoned Belial. He required 5 lacerations to prove my dedication before he would teach me anything.
-----------------> Destroyed my life before my eyes. Took away my car and friends and showed me the parts within myself that were blocking my abilities and my ascension.
------------------------> During this time I was studying the occult heavily while trying to rid myself of these negative qualities.
------------------------------> Cursed my ex-girlfriend with a simple candle spell. I did not let the candle burn the whole way. Results were almost immediate. She went through betrayal, drug use, and rape. At this point I started to get scared. I couldn’t believe this much power was inside of me. I began to get scared. Belial tells me that this is what I asked for and I should have thought of the consequences beforehand. I don’t regret it.
May 2020:
-------> Made a pact with Belial to solidify our relationship and gain more knowledge. He was content with my progress so far but there was much more work to do.
-----------------> Started working with Bune. $1,200 showed up in my house. Unbelievable. Spent the money like an ass. Realized I needed to be working for stability and wealth instead of small amounts of money. I used my talents and created a jerry-rigged business.
June 2020:
-------> Asked Bune to bless my business and she did. I did not make a single dollar but people were downloading my products very often.
-----------------> Made a pact with Halphas to increase my business and find good connections. I believe that Halphas played the major part in landing me my current business situation, but the results came much later.
-----------------------> I had some competitors in my field albeit incompetent ones. They are disgusting, selfish, and evil human beings. I summoned Malphas to make sure one of them quits and gives up. I later come to find out that he was arrested for robbing and shooting later that month. Success.
------------------------------> I was set up by my ex girlfriend and assaulted by two women. I could not take this to heart but deemed them worthy of destruction. I summoned Gaap and asked that these two women be made to attack and hate each other. I will say these women are no longer friends.
------------------------------------>I was still studying the occult. I began questioning why the rest of the human race was not using this power. I could not find the answer.
July 2020-August 2020:
-------> I began working with Bael to hide myself. This pact is still ongoing and I’m not sure if I will ever be able to break it considering the circumstances. You might say this pact was made out of paranoia. I cannot contest that.
-----------------> I summon Belial and Bune and request they help me secure a job making $100,000 a year. They agree, but Belial questions me. “Why so low? Do you not have the talents and determination to make as much as you want? You limit yourself. No. You are going to have much more than this.” I didn’t believe it. Not one bit. There was no way that I deserved to be wealthy. I wasn’t shit. Or so I thought. I am surprised at the results because of how much I didn’t believe in these two rituals. It was bad, but yet I persisted in changing my mindset and forcing myself to believe it.
-----------------------> I consider this period of time to be the worst growing pains for my ascension. My business was essentially a failure, and I made little to no growth in other endeavors. Depression was creeping in on me. The stagnation was at an all time high, and yet the demons kept saying one thing only: “Trust.” I am beginning to wonder now while writing this if this was one of the last tests for my ascension. I am going to say yes. Trusting my intuition and the magick was one of the hardest things I’ve had to learn. I am a very logical man by nature and thus this only raised my suspicions of inadequacy.
-----------------------------------> I end up breaking every pact I have. I am lost. And yet the demons still say: "TRUST".
September 2020:
-------> In a twisted turn of events I am now homeless for a period of 9 days. I am forced to sell my website for a very low amount of money. My skin begins to destroy itself. It turns out later that I was infested with scabies. I get a job at McDonald’s that lasts a day. I feel as if this is either a test or a punishment by my subconscious mind for daring to question my own power. This is what you wanted, isn’t it Makkos? I am now focused on survival. Business endeavors left my mind.
-----------------> I had no hope left. None. And yet this tiny piece of my subconscious kept urging me to stay positive and BELIEVE. Goddamnit, Makkos, why couldn’t you just believe? It’s almost here… You are about to be rewarded… But you don’t believe! What a shame… There is much work to be done, but you have strained yourself already. Take this reward and remember to BELIEVE. I am soon contacted by this famous man and the business talks ensue. I am also back in a house and living well once again with the help of one of Azazel’s demons. Things are starting to look up from here… I am paid a hefty deposit from this man to begin my work. I simply can’t believe it, but at the same time I have to because it’s right in front of my eyes… What the f**k is going on?
October 2020:
-------> The business agreement is now solidified through a lawyer. I own 50% of this corporation and will be managing the finances and technology. I am still working on my part of this company, and building an authentic connection with my partner.
-----------------> My skin is absolutely destroyed from the scabies. I scratched it raw and the pain is affecting my mental health. I summon Marbas to heal this disease, and within two weeks and multiple doctors and medicines my skin is now normal again. Sweet relief. Thank you, Marbas, and thank you, science.
-----------------------> I begin studying the occult in depth once more. I am reading book after book and performing rituals daily. I am beginning to stagnate once again, and must find a way to keep growing. I decide to work with some geniuses for protection and some money. The rituals are a success but I have a large distaste for these entities. I am drawn to demonic energy and believe I will stick with demons for a while. I wish to reach the demonic plane.
November 2020:
-------> I am still building my side of things and we are waiting for our lawyer to finish his tasks. We are expecting to launch next month or January. Things are very exciting. I am humbled by this opportunity and will continue to work my ass off.
-----------------> Results of my rituals are manifesting almost instantaneously. I am vibrating at an intense level and can now pick up vibrations from every object. My intuition is at the highest is at a peak. I can predict events at a 90% rate. I am able to heal people and animals on the spot and without ritual. I cannot be around 95% of people for more than five minutes. There is something off about most people. I am extremely lonely, and yet I have all the power to change this. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I will hang out with people, but I always seem to regret it after the fact. I have a big feeling in my gut that I will be alone for most of my journey here on Earth. I don’t mind.
I came to a conclusion of why the most powerful magicians are hiding. This is of course my opinion and it’s up for debate. I believe that most people would use this power for pure destruction; destruction of themselves and of others. I believe that the most powerful magicians understand this and thus are hiding both themselves and the secrets as best they can. This opinion goes against what is said in Enochian magick. And that’s okay. If you take a look at our world you can see through the hidden messages that only a select few control this Earth. They are the most powerful dark magicians. This is another reason why other magicians are hiding. They fight for the light and yet if they reveal themselves they undoubtedly will be killed mercilessly. Maybe some of them don’t fight for the light but know the top dogs could destroy them swiftly and successfully. Maybe some of them are selfish and realize that if everybody used this power there would be much competition. This is a selfish yet smart decision depending on how you view things. I also believe that if the commonfolk used this power they would drive themselves to suicide or insanity. Many a nights I have questioned if any of this is real and if I should seek mental health evaluation. I suppose that is only a part of this journey and I may never truly know the answer. But I trust. I believe.
There is spiritual war taking place rather soon. Again, this is my opinion. I believe that it’s going to be a bloody war, but that unconditional love and light will prevail. These monsters have long controlled and destroyed this place, and I believe their time is coming swiftly. I hope to play a major part in this war and will sacrifice everything for unconditional love.
I must say that my opinion is interesting given the fact that “good” and “evil” don’t really exist. There are only subtle shades of gray. But love and hatred exist. Unity and division run rampant over the planet. I firmly believe that the meaning of life is unconditional love and that once humanity realizes this we will begin our ascension to the fifth dimension. I don’t believe the world is getting worse. I believe that it’s rapidly spiraling towards the higher purpose of humanity and unconditional love. I do not know what this entails. I don’t have all the answers. Yet somehow I know.
I hope that this journal helps some of you or provides entertainment for you. At this point I wish you luck and success in your personal endeavors and ascension. If you have any questions about ritual or magick please contact me. I love to help those willing to listen and learn much like myself.
I am currently looking for a mentor that can teach me what they know. I believe I am stagnating and wish to find someone with more power than myself that will take me under his or her wing. I wish to learn. I am a beginner seeking as much wisdom as possible. Please, if you have anything to offer me I will try to offer you whatever I can. Do not hesitate to contact me.
