On Walpurgisnacht I celebrated my self-initiation and dedication into demonic magick, the LHP, and studying demonolatry.
I washed off the Catholic baptism I had never wanted, willingly broke the bonds with YHWH and JCI beliefs.
Whew!!! Honestly, this self initiation is the best thing I’ve done. I feel at home.
A few days later I ended up doing a similar though less deep initiation into angelic magick. I already work with angels and love them, but i wanted to step away from spirituality/healing and into working with them magickally. I’m not surprised because I have a very natural attraction to both angels and demons, and so far seem to work well with both.
In the days working up the the first initiation I felt called to Belial and Leviathan, but not much since then! I loved researching them and connecting with them and I’m sure I will more in the future. I still genuinely feel connected to Belial but I’m not sure how and I’m giving it time.
I’ve had a lot of unique dreams since the initiation and dedication. I adore Lucifer so very much, and he really cleared some things up for me (he was masking as Apollo until I was ready to start this path).
Dantalion came to me in a dream. I had to fight a woman who tried to choke me, and as I grabbed her neck into a chokehold she finally stopped. As we stood facing each other in the park pavilion, she reached out her hands to mine and her head fell back. We both started to speak at once, kind of stuttering until the knowing came and at once we both nearly spat out “Dantalion!” So I’m excited to look into the Grand Duke.
My reading from V.K. is still resonating beautifully. I am looking forward to spending a day focused on Lilith’s energy in a more devotional way. If anyone has tips on connecting to Beelzebub (my patron) I will gladly take them! I feel that we are connecting and the work I’ve done is helping, but it’s kind of like I’m missing something. Like I’m just slightly to the left of where he is and need to realign lol.