I understand. My own life has been a series of struggles and I’ve gone through several cycles of painful growth, each with their own dark night.
I can’t speak for other people. I can only offer my own experiences.
My entire life has been a path of challenges that wounded me, but always lead me to the point where I’m stronger and wiser. It’s felt like a living hell at times … but I see the gifts I was given through that ordeal when I look back on it years later, after the pain has passed.
Once I stopped fighting myself and accepted that my own evolution is a series of painful changes … and I fully embraced the need to make those painful changes … my life became a lot easier.
Are the changes still painful? Sure, at times. But I’m not resisting it now and that’s allowing me to adapt to the changes much quicker with less stress.
By committing myself to my own evolution through my journey into magick, things have started to align very quickly for me, bringing me more of what I really desire and stripping away the things that don’t work for me. That “strpping away” can cause painful changes in my life, but I understand it’s a part of the process of my own evolution.
For example, I want a certain kind of lifestyle that gives me the freedom to do what I want with my time while also earning a great deal of money.
It’s taken me the better part of the last year working toward that goal, but the groundwork was laid that will allow that to start flowing into my life in a very tangible way within the next few months.
The painful changes came from the need to strip away the behaviors and the old patterns that would not help me reach my goal. I had to morph into the person capable of achieving that goal. And I had to sacrifice some other things that were not as important to me in order for me to focus on my goal.
Was it easy? Hell no. But is it worth it? It is to me.
I know a few people who appear to be very happy to other people, but I’m close enough to them to see their misery.
Social media like Facebook has really highlighted this. We see someone’s happy photo when they were out with their friends and think “Wow, they’re so happy. I wish I was happy like that.”
But you don’t see them two minutes later when the smiles for the camera are gone and they’re sitting there together, not talking, feeling all alone in a roomful of people.
No one is happy all the time.
Personally, I think happiness is highly overrated. I’m more concerned with creating something meaningful to me. I’m more concerned about things like freedom, purpose, contentment, and satisfaction than I am happiness.