Today’s thoughts ⎯ Today dawned rainy and dark, my favorite weather. I feel a certain optimism, even though discouragement is present…
It’s been a pain to write with my other (left) arm hurting like hell, thankfully not my dominant side.
Last night I had to break up a fight between my cats that took on rather critical proportions. You see, there are a lot of street cats in heat and this cat of mine just suddenly attacked another male cat of mine, this cat lives in another room of the house, outside properly screened, precisely to prevent the two from meeting and this happening, when the same went inside the house and this cat of mine (the attacker) saw him and attacked him from behind.
My sister and I managed to separate them, but he decided to attack an old cat who lives with him, but to his misfortune, she is a cat who is used to fighting, even though her eyesight was blurred by an illness when she was a kitten, and she simply repelled him and retreated. No harm done.
Finally, not satisfied, he decided to fight with a younger cat who is too calm to fight and always gets the worst of these situations.
This cat has suffered a lot in his life and this kind of confrontation leaves him very shaken, which is why I acted without thinking and tried to separate them. I succeeded, but he wrapped himself around my arm like an anaconda and started biting and scratching. Wow, it hurt so much and it was hard to get him off my arm. He even managed to scratch my sister and my father (to a lesser extent) when they tried to restrain him.
I’m not sure what happened in those hours, I was busy trying to quell the excruciating pain, and the blood, in my arm.
All I know is that my father managed to stop him and take him away from everyone.
I didn’t care about anything but the pain that I wanted to go away, and my sister tried to console me from the kitchen. I didn’t understand why she didn’t come to me, until she said she was feeling a bit sick, and that’s when I saw that he had scratched her arm deeply, so much so that there was a lot of blood on the floor and splashes on the stove.
When I saw this I put my pain aside and went to help her, it’s a good and bad trait in me, I told her to sit down so she wouldn’t fall over from dizziness, and I started to stop the bleeding.
The pain in my arm was unbearable from the physical effort, but she needed me and I couldn’t back down.
I made the necessary bandages and went to see if the cats were all right, fortunately they were, frightened but fine.
This cat of mine, who attacked the others, is not an aggressive cat, he’s a bit ignorant but not an irrational little beast, he’s sweet and I love him even though he did this to us, my sister says the same. I don’t take for the heart nothing that an animal, except humans, does to me badd.
The problem, there are a lot of female cats in heat, as I said before, and not only them around, there are also a lot of male street cats in the neighborhood, cats I’ve never seen around here before, probably attracted from other places, and they’ve now thought it would be a good idea to try to get into my house to fight with my cats, they even growl at them from outside the window.
And my cat isn’t neutered yet, so this whole situation has probably stressed him out to the point of “seeing enemies where there are none”. He’s still on the waiting list for free neutering. If the price wasn’t so exorbitant where I live, I would have done it sooner, privately. In fact, he’s fine, he’ll stay with me and I’ll find a solution to this situation, not least because no one who loves their animals likes to see them fight, let alone discard them as if they had no feelings or were replaceable.
Anyway, I ended up not continuing with my scrying practice and this frustrated me, because I really wanted to do it and the pain in my arm was stopping me.
I ended up going to sleep to see if it would relieve me a little, I put on the Belial song, to distract me and also because I wanted to continue my immersion in this particular demon.
The music in this post:
In the end, I hope to be able to practice something today, even if it’s meditation.
I’d even publish a photo of how my arm looks, but I don’t feel comfortable taking pictures at the moment…