2/11/21
Well. The new Enochian book, Universal Magick, is already proving to be a slam dunk. I really expected no less, between my experience with Hargrove and Practical Djinn Magick and my experience with Damon Brand’s Success Magick, I was pretty sure this was a winner. But I’m still impressed. I’ve had the book since 2/3/21, so today’s the 11th. That’s all of 7 days, and we’ll skip to the long story short, because I’m letting myself go off on tangent, when you really just need to know that I did a ritual last night for the Power of Creation. Essentially it’s supposed to give you creative inspiration based on whatever your request statement is. My statement was, I knew exactly which magic to use for xxxxxx situation. It’s a very specific situation in my life, and last night I wasn’t really sure. Lots of things I could do, but which was really the ideal?
I’ve been sitting here this morning, (nope, haven’t slept) and I am knitting and listening to music. A name randomly popped in my head, or rather another situation, but I was not part of it. I’m just aware of it due to the impact it had on someone who is in my current situation. He’s long gone, several years now actually but isn’t that the path I just signed up for? You know the one with lots of dead guys. He was real important to this person in my life, like. Super important, and the person in my life is still upset about it, especially on 2/14- because it was so close to the day that this spirit died.
I’ve got several ideas, I mean there’s the obvious- Call him up and ask him to talk to the person in my life. (Like dreams are a real thing, ya know) Call him up and ask him to influence the person in my life etc… These method’s have worked well with me using dead I didn’t know. But not against this target. This target previously seemed unaffected by the dead.
But this is special dead, right? Right. I feel like, I need to hurry but I’m not there yet. I mean. Technically I’ve done it before, but not with 100% accuracy. I mean talk to specific dead, not tasked them. It’s not my dead either, it’s the other persons so. The price is probably higher than I’m used to. But still, I feel like. I’m on the brink of this new path, so I should wait right? I should get some experience, get a handle on how operating with one or more open gates, I should know the rituals and things better… and what’s my deal?
I’ve never put anything off, just because I wasn’t ready before. Hell, I usually run before I walk. That’s my instinct here. I did reread the Initiation for Necromancy for Demonolatry again a few hours ago. I’m actually drawn to it for some reason, I think because Connolly pretty much tells you that if you are a necromancy of any sort, with any senses at all, you will get a response from the entities you summon for it. (You are opening gates I guess…) I’ve got an entity in mind and well. Obviously I think this is my next route. I think I get visual impressions, audio and I can feel energy. It’s not 100% consistent by any means, but I get it with some spirits. I know I’ve seen the dead in the past and thought it was right here with me so. Obviously I think I know the answer, so. If I do the work, I should get a response of some sort.
But what if I’m wrong?
I could do it tonight, or rather when I get up after an afternoon nap. There is a space within the ritual to consecrate and dedicate tools… but it’s just a line that says add this ritual here if desired. It’s a stand a lone ritual, that you can shove into the initiation ritual. It’s not really even needed in my opinion, it’s not like I haven’t consecrated tools before but… I figured why not give it a whirl. Most of my tools won’t be here till Tuesday. I’m not sure on the wand since it was via Etsy and not Amazon but. Most won’t be here till Tuesday.
Does it matter? Other than I feel like I’m rushing? I only feel that way, because I’m afraid nothing will happen, and I’ll feel rejected. I can do the other ritual on Tuesday if I still want to use it. My kids will be here this weekend, and I know from what my son says, it seems he’s already sensitive to the dead. He’s described things to me I remember from my childhood. But, he’s going to be in this space eventually anyways. I just need to be sure my banishing, cleansing, shielding and warding are good. That’s really all I can do, because both are kids are here every other weekend so. The only thing not starting tonight would do, is delay how long till have to be tighter on my hygiene. It’s also not like I’ve not been working with random dead spirits as it suites me. Hell I called them less than a month ago for something, made a payment, went to bed and woke up to results. So I can dismiss that worry too.
So I think I got nothing. No reason not to carry out my first operation tonight, this evening, early tomorrow morning or whatever it is when I wake up after going to sleep for a bit. The fourteenth is Sunday, so I need to work out if I would want to contact the spirit before, or if it would be okay if it was later on the 14th, after my kids leave. If I did it ahead Friday is only two days, so that’s probably close enough. I’m clearly over thinking things and I am sure the answer will come, if I’d just give them a chance and stop thinking
Before you even start on the details should have come with the Enochian, let me remind you how I worded it. I knew exactly which magic to use for the situation. I didn’t say nothing about knowing how to execute it, just about knowing which to use. Sure I could probably recast and try for more, but I might just get all muddle up answers and honestly, if I can’t figure out execution with a little logical thinking, all on my mind well then. I didn’t deserve to know which type of magic either.
I was wondering how Lilith, Loki and my ubi fit into this equation. I haven’t dug real deep but, I couldn’t just piece the puzzle together, I felt like I was missing something. Now I know. If this is the answer, then they helped me on the situation- which is something they agreed to do. Kinda funny how this magic shit puts itself together.
Damned. I love it when this shit gets real all of a sudden.