While rummaging through posts, I can across the Letter of Intent to Lilith guide for requesting a succubus/incubus from the Great Mother. It got me along the path of thinking, what about having a succubus as a familiar? What could a succubus do as a familiar? Would a succubus even make for a good familiar? Would a succubus even consider becoming a familiar? All these questions and more.
I have yet to do the ritual because I’m not sure my needs and intentions are well enough thought out, and I wouldn’t want to disrespect Mother Lilith or her children with a half hearted ritual with little to no true intent behind it.
On that note however, I did begin to consider what my request might be while laying down in a relaxed, but not meditative, state. I got to the point where I essentially rehearsed what the letter would say in my mind, listing off personality traits desired and details of the nature of our relationship intended. There was only slight detail concerning the sexual aspect of it, but the main focus was on the succubus being a guide, companion, and assistant in my workings. Almost like the secretary you don’t tell your wife about.
It was during all this and in the time that followed that I noticed arousal growing in me. I’m not sure if this was a subconscious thing or something else, but I’ve been a bit fixated on this whole thing ever since. A name has even been a recurring thought concerning all of this. I’ve also had another random bout of arousal last night while laying in bed. Both occurred between 1 and 4 am.
So the questions I’d like to pose are:
Would a succubus be a familiar?
What could a succubus Familiar do?
Would a succubus be a good familiar?
Did I accidentally do my own version of the ritual?
If I did, do these happenings mean it worked and Lilith sent her to me?
If not, is this all just subconscious stuff?
What’s up with this name that just keeps coming to me? Could it be the name of the succubus?
Considering the nature of the situation, I felt this is the category it belonged in.