Back in April, I was crossing my fingers to get hired full time by the company I was working as a temp for, and decided to do some of the wealth candle magick written about in WoD. I was promptly let go the next day. I sighed, rolled my eyes, but figured this was the universe’s way of telling me that job was a dead end.
Finding myself with a whole lot of extra free time on my hands, I spent some of it working with Azazel to figure out where I was going with my life, including an evocation for, well, another job.
Soon after, I got an offer for another temp job. Better hours and money than my last one, but still not exactly what I was looking for. Around that time I was reading Brother Molech’s blog, and I saw an entry where he used the NAP angels to get a new job, but he gave them specifics as to what he was looking for.
And I was thinking “Why do I have to specify a permanent job with benefits?”, Azazel is smart enough to know what I want. And he told me yes, spirits usually do know what you want, but it’s a matter of respect. Spirits won’t disrespect your autonomy by not following exactly what you ask for, and they shouldn’t be forced to work around assumptions, because no one likes doing that.
Ok, fair enough. Now up until this point, I had been wondering how much psychic connection magicians have to the spirits they work with. Meaning, after getting in contact for the first time, is full evocation/invocation necessary to be able to hold a conversation? I’ve never believed that to be the case. Hell, millions upon millions of people of various faith believe that prayer is a real thing (I’m using “prayer” to mean psychically communicating with a spirit/deity), but for some reason many CMs believe this to be “mental masturbation”, a phrase that is often favored by them to look down on those who don’t practice exactly by the grimoire.
To test this, I “prayed” to Azazel and thanked him for the work he had brought so far, but I was looking for something far more substantial, with benefits, 401k, commissions, and most importantly, something permanent. No candles, no incense, no trance, just talking to him like I used to talk to Jesus.
Only a few days later I heard from a company I had applied to previously. Long story short, I ended up with a job with everything I had asked for, and then some (a bunch of paid holiday, monthly bonuses, etc). I’m not bringing home six figures just yet, but I am in a substantially better place than I was a month ago. Hell, given that in my part of the world companies are demanding a BA simply to apply for secretary positions, I’m pretty damn ecstatic.
So a shout out to Azazel for being badass as usual, and I’m wondering what my fellow BALGers think about “prayer”, and your experiences with it, whatever you choose to call it. It’s not something that is often talked about outside of christian mysticism/paganism, at least not that I’ve seen.