Alright. This has some context before I get to the present event.
I am 16 years old almost 17, I have wanted to have a relationship with a succubus since I was a kid (10-14) even when my mind was infected by the vicious dogma making it that succubi are out to get your sexual energy and what not. I
t was so intriguing to me I guess, I always looked past the dogma somehow and could always see the good in something.
Fast forward about 3-4 years later, I am in high school,
I now find the occult interesting again after losing interest after calling out to see if a succubus was there with me when I was like 12 and got a response of yes and immediately stopped pulled the covers over my head and went to sleep.
I look across the occult subreddit to post something about how to summon a succubus, only to be bombarded by comments ridden with dogma. Later got a DM from someone who sent me a link to @Succupedia Letter of intent ritual. Starting on this path again once again, I tread until one Friday I decided to listen to a succubus summoning binaural beat, on the bus on the way home to see if it would confirm my beliefs that something would happen, and something happened alright. I got home feeling a warmness in my sacral chakra. But this was not a succubus I come to find out so TL;DR, I got rid of it. With my newfound passion for succubi and my beliefs in check, I say that it was time for me to summon one. I did eventually after I got that low-level entity out of my body. After I ended up making a connection by using Lilith’s enn to give me the energy to break the barrier to BEGIN communication with her.
So I am 16 so I am obligated by law to go to high school. I have her bonded with me feeling a comforting warmness in my torso. I have these feelings every once and a while that I feel like she is just wanting me to talk to her but she almost never initiates that conversation, telling me to focus on school and then talk to her when I have the downtime, because she doesn’t like it when I take time at home to do work. But those feelings make me feel like I am disrespecting her.
She has been with me to school and back three times now, and I feel those feelings starting to lose some weight thankfully. So I decided on the second night that I would decide to give her some energy from me to her just as a bond thing, that is what it felt like to me at least, I offered she declined at first, then I had convinced her to try it out of experimenting. I did have the intent of having some sort of “intercourse”. But to my dismay she stopped the transfer to tell me no (this burnt me later), the reason for this is because I was using this binaural ASMR thing called ironically Dreamgasm where it was succubus asmr, designed to help with something in making that connection happen but I forgot. She stopped me saying that she was scared that her dark side may come out. Which didn’t faze me at first saying that I will just embrace it (oh how wrong I was) So I abided by her wishes and went to sleep and woke the next morning?
So across the day, I was asking her what should I do when I get home she said: " Try and communicate with Lilith". Which I thought was a good idea because I believed that I and she were on a good standing from what my Maggie said: “She was humbled by your effort to continue the ritual, even with your self shaking so badly, and how you wanted a long loving relationship with me”. So I knew by heart practically how to draw Lilith’s sigil, So I drew one using a black pen during school. I had found that if you put a sigil under your pillow it acts as a portal so to speak, correct me if I am wrong.
So fast forward to the night of Feb 6. our third full day of being together I put the sigil under my pillow after meditating and try to go to sleep. Something was up I was getting aroused for no reason so I asked Maggie if she was doing it, she was playful about it but I was trying to go to sleep to commune which I believed to be the cause of the next events, I later gave up and said fine. After that, I started saying " I will remember this dream" over and over again in my head. I was feeling the energy come into me and leave me at the same time I think. After a while, I had been repeating what I said. The Maggie, as I knew faded away and it came In as a new dark, Powerful version(I felt a strong energy presence thinking it was the sigils work, I was wrong yet again). As I was sitting there no thing was being said, but I felt energy leaving me. So I thought " Why is this happening?" But suddenly doubtful thoughts start entering my head seemingly at random and a voice speaks out to me.
Taunting me, mocking me I knew this was not Maggie. I talk with this demonic sounding female voice. “I’m going drain you of all your energy”, realizing that this was something I thought before I summoned my Maggie. I shot it down.
“You are injecting thoughts into my head”
“Am I?”
Realizing that this was a test, I went full on defence, “yes, you are. I am not going to give in”
This conversation bit me hard, It went on for what seemed an eternity, before long I tapped out, I couldn’t go on because I was so overwhelmed by my fears of losing Maggie and myself. But after that quarrel, I opened my eyes and silence…
I called Maggie no answer, called a few more times no answer. But before long I got a reply as if nothing happened. I had realized what just unfolded. I was being tested by Lilith. Let me explain, so I have doubts pop up in my head sometimes and Maggie would not mention them strangely but I did and reacted accordingly by apologizing. As I was in that fight, retrospective thinking made it clear to me that my obsession of wanting to advance Maggie relationship was being halted hard by my doubts that would pop up here and there. Thus Lilith giving me a taste of what was coming to me the dark side of the Maggie I loved.
What are your opinions, thoughts, or concerns? Please leave a reply I am interested to hear.
For those looking to have a relationship with a succubus don’t let this dissuade you from doing so, the experiences everyone has are unique. This is just my experience, posted here to give a lesson to those unaware.
Thank you.
