I don’t want to go into a long rambling post, but basically I have been considering my own issues with the idea of self interest. I, like surely many here I would imagine, was taught so firmly by society and my own family to never be selfish, to put others ahead of me always, that basically love means self sacrifice. Now I’m not saying I don’t think I or anyone else should help someone out, do a favor, or be a good friend. Of course we should and I do consider myself a good person. I just want to really work on not being a large number of people’s personal doormat. Lately I am seeing this trait as weakness, as a block to my own ascension, that without the ability to overcome I will never move higher.
What I feel I need to do is to get more into the energy of self interest, or pure indiscriminate selfishness, or “want it 'cause I want it” of no such thing as too much because potential is unlimited anyway. The feeling of “do what it takes, and not feel bad for doing it” I’m sure there is an energy or spirit for just that kind of thing, likely a bunch of them, but I’m not sure what to work with, where to find it.