Greetings everyone,
I once frequented this forum when I was 17/18/. I am now 24, turning 25. At that time, I was very much on my own path as we all are. I was unemployed and still in high school. There in, lied my problem. I didn’t have the resources for proper ceremonial magick. Or so I thought. I thought all the entities were real entities and technically they are.
Being that I was still brand new to all this, I stuck to what I knew which was norse runecraft and meditation. I say I grew too prideful in that regard. I felt ready to take on summoning the goetia spirits but with all things in magick, it all comes at a cost.
I started learning about them because one of my friends had fully completed her operations and binded all 72 spirits. Again, at this time, I did not understand/comprehend the idea that these beings were aspects of the self. I thought they were real and whether or not you believe they are real or not, I do not judge.
Upon learning of the Lesser Key, I immediately noticed a shift in my energy. It was like a crushing weight upon my shoulders and as if I had been shackled and collared because as soon as you open that book, it calls to you. When the gate is unlatched, there is no closing the gate.
I struggled with this idea. Therefore, I became “possessed” so to speak by these darker aspects of the self. The biggest contendor back then was Asmodeus. I was afraid, very afraid because I refused to accept that there was lust in my heart. I believe I came here to seek advice for how to deal with Asmodeus and there in, I started to slowly accept this darker aspect of myself at no price. Or so I would think.
Like I said, I grew prideful and arrogant, I didn’t have safeguards in place and seeking answers for how the universe worked, for philosophical concepts, I would look to King Paimon for advice, See my QnA with The King for reference.
While his portion of my mind was unlocked, it came at a cost. It was a simple exchange of putting his sigil on my altar so not extremely bad but out of arrogance/pride so to speak, I gave him the license to depart without finishing my operation and binding/transforming his energy and incorporating it back into mine.
Likewise, I would do this for several other of the Goetia, feeling as if it wouldn’t cause me any harm in my life. But as they say, the brighter your light, the darker your shadow becomes. It was subtle but now very noticible in my life.
For example with Asmodeus:
The price to pay was sexual energy which at the time I was okay with but two years after making contact with him, I would meet my ex of which, cheated on me and essentially, only used me for her own sexual gratification.
Here is what I understand about the goetia now:
The Goetia are aspects of ones mind. They are you. They are the parts of you that you repress. Upon the solomonic method, you can “conquer” so to speak, these darker aspects of yourself by giving them space to grow and accept them rather than repress them. If you repress them, they eventually reveal themselves outwardly. As in, “possession”. Possession isn’t as its glamourised in Hollywood. It’s subtle. Subtle influences in your life that eventually lead to you exploding outwardly.
Binding:
Binding the entities of the Goetia is thusly as followed. You are not “getting rid” of the negative energy in your life. When you bind them, you are transforming the negative aspects into a more positive aspect in your own headspace.
I bring this up because I am being called back to the Lesser Key and the Goetia in order to better understand myself. I have become stagnant and as with all things spiritual, you don’t ever realise it.
Duke Agares once told me five years ago that my altar had long been abandoned and stagnant and while I didn’t understand at the time, I understand now.
Feel free to discuss with me how you choose to incorporate the demons back into your own system