I did an evocation of Bune two nights ago. I may have made contact. But on to that in a minute or two…
Some may find my magickal development interesting. Others may find they are on a similar path. Most will probably find it aggravating.
Well, as many of you know, I struggle with perennial doubt regarding whether Magick is real. And by “real”, I mean it either: 1) Utilizes conscious entities that exist apart from humans’ belief in them OR 2) Utilizes inherent powers in humans. Acknowledging the possibility of #2 is a big step for me. I still don’t like that option, but maybe there is such a thing.
But even if I am someday convinced that one of those types of magick is “real”, the next obstacle would be for me to determine whether or not it is worth my time in light of my goals in life. What I mean by that is this: if magick is “real”, so be it. But can it bring wealth and success in a way that I could not get quicker and easier by just spending my time pursuing ordinary means. For example, rather than spending an hour in evocation, maybe my time would be better spent research business opportunities, etc. The question I would need to answer at that point is “how effective is it at getting significant things accomplished that could not have also gotten accomplished through simply smart choices, hard work and maybe a little bit of luck?”
Now on to the topic of my evocation: For me, meditation has always been a huge obstacle. My mind is just always “on”, always skeptical, and always thinking about life. But I have noticed that staring at candles definitely help my mind shut down and focus. So I knew that would have to play a role in my next magickal endeavor. Next, I knew that I needed a “working system”. I decided to give a Ouija board a try. I found one that was a lot more elaborate than the traditional one. Mine had various symbols and words along with the alphabet and the yes/no options.
Anyhow, I focused on my candle for a few minutes. I placed my hand on the planchet and asked for Bune to come. I felt my hand energize. I asked if he would be willing to speak with me. It moved to “maybe”. I asked what he meant by that. It then moved to “joy”. I asked if he meant that he would only help me if I was intent on pursuing joy. It did not move. I asked him how I could find financial success. It moved to the word “sow” (as in sow/reap). I asked him how I was supposed to sow. It moved to “day”. I asked what it was that I should sow during the day. It moved to a symbol for building things with my hands (amongst other meanings). I asked whether he would help me with this. No answer, so I thanked him and dismissed him. I tried to contact him last night, but no results.
So, just for the record, the Ouija board was new. I did not know the location of the various words and symbols. Also, I tried not to look at the planchet until it stopped moving so that I wouldn’t guide it there myself.
So do I believe in magick now? I will just say that I am less skeptical. However, I know that it is subject to subconscious manipulation by the user. Anyhow, the question is, “Was it a good use of my time?” Ehh. I don’t know. His answers were all pretty common sense and ones that anybody with half a brain would have given me. Now, if he said, “Go see Bill down at the hardware store, he is looking to hire someone to build custom pet houses…oh and by the way, I will make sure Bill hires you”, that would be a different story. That is something that would make me say that it was worth my time. But this “evocation” of Bune helped with my confidence a bit. But I’m sure after you all get done attacking the experience, I will doubt again :), haha.