[quote=“keez, post:1, topic:3954”]Hey all buggin you again with the obtuse questions.Have any of you noticed a shift in your personality or should I say: are you the same person that you were before you began practicing left hand magick than who you “are” now? Pre left hand path I can honestly say I was something stand offish, angry, deceitful, with a dash of criminality (harmless I swear lol)etc etc ( those were the nice one’s lol). I’m roughly touching on a good year fully delving into this practice and I’m humble patient withstanding generally or I so feel the nicest guy in the world lol. Not an act or anything. Every once and a while I’ll go through my old grimoires and such and see the things I’ve done or sought to accomplish and shake my head. Could be just be maturity. Trust me when I say I love the growth. It’s just seeing the jump is, well something worth sharing. I would of normally just analyzed myself and generalize a conclusion but I’m on a forum now lol. At the same time I would of expected having congress with so called “demonic” entities would further certain negative aspects of myself. Picking the brain on a Friday so sorry and enjoy the weekend!!
I would have to agree with this. When I was younger and on the beginning path I used to think wouldn’t it be great if XYZ got this and that. But after several fights in the spiritual realm, I realize hey if I can sock someone from afar, who says they can’t do it to me? It actually helped me curb my abuse. Now only good things happen because I don’t dwell on revenge, I know the negative person often gets his desserts and it is not my place to decide. And because they are no longer on my mind, I am free from the effects of their negativity as well.
So I think when you become more powerful, you have less to prove. Much like a Kung Fu artist trains to become the best, only to have so much confidence, they rarely feel the need to fight. From my perspective a strong ego doesn’t act like a reactive baby with a tantrum. So when a person still has the need to show off…they still subconsciously believe they powerless with something to prove. Unfortunately this is the mentality of those who try to climb the ranks of power and never feeling quite good enough. Those are the ones that are the disaster waiting to happen.