Hi there, I’m Tiger and I’m a recovering sex and love addict - wait fuck, wrong site, hold up, let me start again.
I’m Tiger and my journey through magic is mainly to learn how to accept myself, love myself and work on self improvement. In a nutshell, I’ve been through a lot of abuse, it was only 16 months ago my mother tried repeatedly stabbing me with a large, sharp knife because I wouldn’t let her eat raw chicken of the BBQ… yeah, thats nothing to what I could go into to!
So realistically, I’m looking into the Shamanic path or anything else that provides recovery and rehabilitation of ones soul to lead to self love instead of self sabotage.
I’m sorry you had to experience that, mothers are supposed to protect their babies, not hurt them. I would die before I ever laid hands or weapons on my kids for any reason. I can’t imagine the emotional trauma that left you.
I hope you find the healing you desire. Take care of yourself.
erowid site has hundreds of thousands of trip reports for almost every substance possible. So it is a very valuable place to first research any drug you do. Don’t do something stupid like just swallow random pills. Always research first. As for real shamanism, i heard there are still genuine shamans in South America but be careful, a lot of them are scammers probably. Best to stay in America, that way you won’t get kidnapped
Shamanism is a human hereitage, found in every single human culture, and aspects of shamanic practice are found spontaneously even with children, so there’s no need to make it a “foreign” thing (no matter where you live) nor to injest substances, or hand over your trust to strangers.
The core of shamanism is the ability to interact with spirits, either in spiritual realms, or using clairsensory abilities, in this realm. Entheogens have their place but if children can do it, that indicates this is something natural for all of us and doesn’t immediately require chemical help.