I thought I had all figured out. Guess If that was the cases I wouldn’t be using my phone so I can type and pace the sidewalk behind my house at the same time.
I was originally going to walk you through a moment of revaluation and revelation. Now I’m angry and well. Let’s just try to get the important matters covered.
I have a housemate atm, in addition to living with my husband, but not someone who practices like I do at all. In fact until a few days ago, he’d never in his life seen tarot tell a story. Let alone an accurate, in depth explanation, give targets, confirm thoughts etc.
He’s said many times he’s never encountered someone whose knowing was so on etc.
Well it’s not that great. I nearly missed spiritual attacks twice now. I knew there were attacks on this house and it’s relationships from last weeks events and carrying ons, I did ritual which I so rarely do… and spirits came through that I didn’t expect.
I didn’t expect the Loa at all. I’ve not worked with them in nearly two years, other than to have a fond thought here or there and know that my development laid elsewhere, but they are always watching those they’ve chosen. They just are, I gave up on the spirits in the peripheral that watched but meant no harm. This is just them.
When I heard one targets name, I got impressions And I knew this was a target for a good friend. It was just his type. I never even thought about the loa despite knowing from fact, and hearing from the housemate what our target would practice and who they would have access to to pay for anything else.
My friend confirmed this was a target he could take, the Loa had already made themselves known recently so it fit to him.
It only took five words from his working for me to go oh shit in shit look at this…
I didn’t give my friend anything, not the name or the situation or anything beyond I have a target, practicing voodoo and it’s interfering with an already fckd up situation at home.
The five words my friend gave me indicated an item, that we had received recently, it indicated a location- which the item came from recently and even indicated what to do- though I’m sure my friend was like… wth.
The item already had the mixture it needed for the spiritual cleansing due to where it came from, I just had to get it to water.
I don’t normally traipse down to the river at midnight, under the light of the slightly not full moon, but I sure will when the knowing and the information from an uninformed third party tells me what to do.
I knew I had to reserve my energy for the other targets and actions. I may not be their target, but I was affected. They managed to make my fears so strong that I couldn’t see past them let alone the real attacks on my family. I couldn’t believe it was possible.
I had a momma witch situation two years ago, a physically harming attack on my person since, and now my family is being attacked because of who they are and it has nothing to do with love, friendship or anything good.
The cards are clear it’s unjust revenge from people who can’t move on with their life’s.
Every time I see a thread about someone working for years on something they just can’t get… wow. I don’t know if I’ll be able to help those people now, because quite frankly it’s not even in the practitioners best interest to do this work. It fucks to their life and their life path and the cards and spirits are clear. I remember being this way with someone for nearly a year once, and that’s pretty bad. So some of these ten and twenty year obsessions…
This is mine. My husband my life, my path, I’ve done the work, I’ve had help, I’ve paid the price. I’m on the right path, I’m not even on hold or hiatus anymore- for most of it. I’m waiting on a governmental green light to run with my dreams… the approval is there it’s quite literally a piece of paper and figuring out one detail and I’m off and running my own business, doing what I want to do- helping people with the spirits I create to empower them to take this life and make it there own.
So back to the story. I handed off even cleansing the home to the housemate. I knew had powerful banishing techniques and I need only give him the tools and job and walk away.
I walked away and I made magical paper. I first gathered my herbs- lavender and rose petals off our very own rose bush. I reached out and connected with the energy, sharing my intent before I soaked each sketchbook page in lavender, and rose water that I steeped myself, then I dried the pages in the sun.
I cut the pages into smaller squares and began the rest of the magic.
It seemed hard to start, despite being a project I’ve thought about doing just because it’s sweet. Once I had started I soon ran out papers and cut more from the stack of uncut magic paper.
I also used a pen I had previously charged as a tool for imbuing intent. I went until I felt energetically drained, imbuing my love and pride for my husband in each little page.
I thought that this was exactly right, it fit with the teachings of radical non violence and Kali in my mind for sure. I’ve been receiving the teachings, the messages… it seems I’m on track. My dream entity told me not to give energy to the attacks basically- walk away and the energy disappears right, like someone else is taking care of it.
It sure seemed like someone else was taking care of it, just like the cards and dreams- focus on my love- until I woke up to dramatically opposite results. I don’t usually have this, so I have been having fits, at myself mostly, about god dammit.
I have proof from this one group of events that Loa most certainly do value someone who they can teach and will grow powerful in their own right over someone who worships and relies on them.
It’s one things to rely on powerful spirits and an entirely different matter to be taught how to do what they do when people call asking for help.
They made it clear I should have seen it despite the fact that we are supposed to assume mundane, take mundane actions first, rule it all out… I’d have never gotten confirmation if I’d acted when I first thought it, wouldn’t have had any idea the gravity of the ones working had or any of it… but I was still clueless until I realized wait a min.
I don’t think like this.
Every time I’ve seen spiritual attack in action, so far I’ve been unaffected except I wouldn’t normally think whatever the shit is. I’d normally have a fit, and get over it not wallow for days.
But after what I’ve been through, everyone expects me to break down… and apparently I have begun to think maybe they right, when I wouldn’t normally.
So I got the message, I understand that the Loa and maybe Shakti or maybe it’s my personal Met Tal or whoever is attached to me, protecting me, and making sure I don’t miss the obvious… and I even understand that I have more targets than I have time and energy for.
I’m not a baneful girl. I can do a real powerful working when it’s for something I feel call to, when It’s for someone I love, but when the messages say so clearly, don’t intervene on this, he has to see it himself…
Idk. Why should have to wait till someone gets on board when I’m right all the time. When it’s not a matter of being right but a matter of importance, such as dude in telling you, I’ve been drugged, I know me and I feel like I’ve been drugged.
Yeah I know, I’d have chosen the wrong hospital still and they wouldn’t have taken the samples anyway, so I’d get the same result- except I’d know my husband listened to me.
So how do you calmly explain it, share how it came about, oh what about my third party who was not privy to the story At All, knowing what item was magically imbued…
And get them to believe you, your not crazy. I’m the one always explaining how no fear, a spirit in this house didn’t do that, we have rules and I can tell you for certain this item did hide because of them. I’ve seen some shit that looked like glamours designed to hide an item right in front of your face though… and that’s unbelievable. I hear you say things you don’t remember as soon as it’s out of your mouth, doesn’t sound like you at all…
I just don’t know friends.
Be careful of the intrusive thoughts. They might not be yours and might not be mental illness that you shouldn’t be inclined to have, is todays take away. The rest of it looks like a pile of shit to me, at least until the next lesson.
Watch out for those phone autocorrecting my obscurely referenced typos- too. They just might confuse you.