Inspired by a topic where someone wrote up his dialog with Asmodeus on wanting to get laid, I’ve decided to write about my own sexual repression.
So, one thing that was said was about how religious dogma prevents us from enjoying life. That we’re taught sex=evil cause of God or some shit. Though that is still a perpetuated element, I think modern sexual repression is less about religion and more to do with our social political climate.
Puberty was just a nightmare altogether, where as a kid or teen I just didn’t think too highly of myself altogether. That’s natural, I guess. But as an adult, I deal with a bigger fear than just being unattractive; being falsely accused of harassment or rape. No shit! I’m fuckn scared as Hell of being accused of rape. As a male, and a cis white one at that, I won’t be able to fight such an accusation. It could ruin my life.
I honestly don’t trust women. It’s not that I believe their all whores. It’s more so because people naturally fear what they don’t understand, so I’m worried that because I’m (blank), people will misinterpret my actions and assume the worst. Women will claim x y or z and men will believe them. I’m not afraid of going to hell. I’m afraid of going jail.
I take great pains to avoid altercations, which make me appear uptight and unrelated. Which only makes me look even more awkward and uncomfortable.
I find it weird that in an age where we’re moving away from religion, we’re still taking in religious dogma. So despite a supposed sexual revolution, having a desire for a woman is still considered disrespectful because you’re “objectifying” her. Despite the effort women put into making themselves desirable.
Humans just don’t make sense. Hell, I’ve even envied dogmatic societies because at least they are more consistent. The liberal western world is anything but consistent, except for being inconsistent.
In conclusion, sex = judgment. I hate how I still have to live with religious dogma entrenched in a supposed secular world. Above all, I hate how one sided it seems.