I’ve been searching through the forum but haven’t really found answers matching exactly on this. So, I’d like to ask how do you learn to control your senses and regain the energy after using them? Meditation seems to “worsen” the situation, since it only makes the development faster. So I believe some healthy breaks from meditation help. This is a long post, sorry for that
Firstly: I know my chakras have been opening, but not in “correct order”. First was the crown chakra, then throat chakra, now sakral chakra is imbalanced. I’ve used certain meditations to make them work in balance, but I seem to have very little control over the whole “awakening” process. I’ve asked help from my spirit guides, especially Lucifer, but he only encourages to embrace the fast & furious ride.
I mean, I’m not complaining that I’m kind of regaining the “psychic abilities” I better had when I was a child and better learn to understand my spirit guides, but at the same time everything is happening really fast, too fast, and I can’t control when and how to use my senses.
I’ve always had ability for strong claircognizance, but I also wanted to improve my previous ability for clairvoyance. I shut it down around 10 years ago, because it was horrible to foresee deaths, major accidents and disasters. I wasn’t really spiritual back then and everything just freaked me out, so it seems I willingly blocked my third eye or something like that.
Instead of getting back the clairvoyance, now I’m able to read and release negative emotions from other people. I’ve always been able to read emotions from some animals and have the most bizarr conversations with them (oh boy how many times my cats have been complaining about each other to me haha), and with people I’ve just been a basic good listener due to my intuition. But now, I’m not only able to tell their true feelings they’ve hidden and locked away, but these people carrying negative emotions inside them are increasingly drawn to me.
People have started calling me on a phone and opening up, crying. It’s worst when I’m physically around people. Strangers come to me and with friends it’s most intense. Ofcourse I do like to help, and people feel good afterwards that they can release the feelings they didn’t even know they have, but the problem is that somehow this drains my own energy. I don’t “feel feel” their emotions, I can just exactly tell how they feel and even what kind of secret self-talk they have. They kind of channel through me.
After having these encounters, it takes several days for me to regain my energy. I’m just utterly exhausted, no matter how much I sleep, spend time outside in the nature or eat well. Of course these things help eventually, but how could I “turn the volume down” of this negative energy release -skill in the first place when I’m spending time with others? I’m sure I’m not the only one who has been struggling with this, so I’d be happy to get some tips.
I also want to make clear, I don’t even feel bad afterwards, just physically tired. And I’m always able to regain the energy levels, but I wouldn’t want to do this every time I spend time with other people I know that I need to put some more boundaries too. I genuinely like to hear people out, but for my sake, I need to turn my back to some of them.
I have problems to control other senses too and I’m definitely attracting parasites. I think I was recently able to get rid of one long-term poltergeist parasite and I’m super careful with spiritual hygiene now, but some paranormal activity is still ongoing. However, now I don’t sense nor “see” any external entity causing that anymore. Lights turn on, objects move on their own in front of me, but I think I might be causing that myself? If so, it’s another indicator I’m not controlling myself.
How can I learn control, while at the same time some break from meditation is needed? I’m grounding myself, spending time in nature, etc. I don’t know that else to do.