Would you like my honest opinion on what to do? Read on if so.
Drop everything that is related to the Golden Dawn, and do not do Quareia or Franz Bardon or Modern Magick or astrology or anything along those lines. Those aren’t wastes of time, but if you feel the need to make a post about getting out of the armchair, then I don’t think they will help you.
Have you ever undertaken a pathworking with demons? I don’t mean that you opened a sigil one time and made a petition, I mean summoning demons most every day and making a request every time you do so? Angel magick would be fine as well, but there is something about the speed and directness with which demons usually act that make magick power very apparent to you and immediately useful in your life.
Stop wasting your time with random stuff. Macaroni portraits and huts made of popsicle sticks aren’t going to make you into a powerful occultist with great skill in magick. Some people think that magick is in the wands and gestures and intellectual correspondencing, but it is not. This is all the mind avoiding magick because it is afraid of magick.
Have you ever experienced a demon being so obviously real and present with you that you scare yourself because of what you see you are capable of? Have you ever experienced a demon manifesting exactly what it is you asked it to do, the very next day?
I’m gonna guess no, to both of those. Would you like to change that? Then remove yourself from all the arts and crafts bullshit and do magick to make things happen in the world around you and to directly control human beings.
Have you ever done that? It’s easier than it may sound, although there is much to learn. All these humans, bumbling around, bouncing off of each other like the ball in a pinball machine, rolling around, believing they have some say in where they go. I find it’s usually best to let them believe what they want to believe.
Here are three book recommendations. I’ve used the first two, and they both played a part in making me into who I am today, living the lifestyle that I now enjoy. Whenever I tell people just a small part of what I get to do in my life, many of them get jealous, and the ones that don’t usually look befuddled and change the subject because they can’t believe it’s actually possible, so why would they pay attention to what they believe is nonsense?
There are pathways through life that can bring you greater freedom, greater power, wealth, whatever it is you want out of life, than most people can accept is possible to achieve, unless you were born into immense privilege. Blind fools, for they cannot see that magick is far greater an inheritance than any sum of money, for magick is what makes anything possible.
Don’t believe me? Ok, that’s not my problem. I get a lot of pleasure out of writing, especially about the occult, so I’ve already gotten what I’m here for.
Demons of Magick by Gordon Winterfield
Lucifer and the Hidden Demons by Theodore Rose
The Magick of Angels and Demons by Henry Archer
The first is more comprehensive than the third for Goetia magick, although the third is an easier method, especially if you don’t just print out the sigils like I did. Ah, my goodness, you didn’t hand-craft 72 complex sigils and instead used your time to live your life and actually practice demonic evocation? The second is my preferred method for pure demonic magick, but you can use any of these books instead of wishy-washy no results time wasting blah magick.
And do you really write down every time you do a banishing ritual or raise magickal energy? I write down summonings usually, but magick is not a chore to be completed like taking out the trash or dealing with taxes. As a wise individual once said, magick is an act of reality manipulation. Maybe I’m just super cool or something, but I have never, never ever ever had a problem with setting aside time for magick, including when I was working like 12-16ish hours per day. If anything, it made me cut out the crap and focus on getting what I fucking want.