15.05.2022.
I have to start listening to my intuition more and trusting myself more - I have a problem, where I mistrust my UPG or made up practice. I developed a quick banishing method where I inhale energy, and then project a moving and indestructable wall of energy, pushing all the gunk out, in one plane and direction and then repeat for the other 5 planes (in front, back, left, right, up down) and in the end I’m sitting in a big, clean box, similar how in Rose Cross ritual… Later I stumbed upon LadyEva’s post on magick only using your hands, and she mentioned a banishing method where you inhale energy and then blast it and feel the shockwaves going out from you - so I guess my technique is usable (why wouldn’t it be? I’m using energy and intent to push energy, I need to trust myself mooooore).
I used this plane wall technique in a rush hour, pushing cars, when I needed the road to be clean + prayed to Lucifer to speed up my journey - in the end I magickally got where I needed to in time with a clean road .
I got Jareth Tempest’s attunement to Lucifer, and I think it was fueled by my ‘If I do something, it will not work, but everything else that others do, works and is legit’ (I’m working on this, I guess my Animus is not developed fully). Didn’t get the dramatic energy purging, that everyone else was talking about, and it has been pretty chill.
When working on set, we were a few people working on rigging some construction thing for lights. I’m still green, so I talked to Lucifer that I want to be a big part of the work and be needed etc etc, with the rig in mind. In the end I ended up setting up lights inside alone in a tad bit dangerous and physically hard conditions. Looking back, I felt and was more useful inside, that if I were to be outside and setting up the rig. I guess Lucifer knew better than me. Hail Lucifer.
A few days ago something activated in my mind and I entered the ‘living in the end’ mindset, that LoA talks about. I entered a heavy flow state and had no care in the world. In a few hours time, so many manifestations came into place, that I could not stop smiling all day. I got invited to a camping outing by afar acquitance, which I had been manifesting. I had been manifesting to work on a particular set, and I got a call from some producer, who wanted me to work there for a day. More friends were texting me that day. Got a super cool job opportunity. I do not know how to explain that state - zero lust for results, only pure vibes. And normally when I affirm or do techniques, back in my mind I’m always like ‘okay I do not have this thing, so now I will have it’ if that makes sense? In that flow state I thought ‘oh yeah, I have this thing, what about it?’. And usually when I enter the ‘I dont care state’, I start thinking ‘okay I am in this state, so that means Ill get my results faster!’. A cursed loop of lust for results. From that day I understood the importance of not thinking about the old story, especially in terms of relationships with other people.
About the work opportunity - every time I do a Labusi sigil for opportunities from Angels of Omnipotence, in a few days I get an opportunity to be a part of some project. I also got the Omnipotence attunement from Tempest, so I want to see how working with the book will be now.