21.05.2022.
Because of work and school this past week I have been sleeping 2-4 hours every night, so no room for magickal practice.
I would say I am an asexual/aromantic (or at least on that spectrum), and using sex and seduction magick is amusing and fascinating to me. I do not understand what happens to them or why every 5th post on BALG is ‘how do I work with Sitri so I get hot girl and hot sex pls help tnx’, but I guess I fast-track on working on relationships and get benefits from people I work on if they like me. The ‘instant turn on’ spell where you rub your thumb with intention works very well for this - usually people start being fidgety (looking around, shaking their legs) and most of the time they are nicer to me. The spell in question 
. I also started to connect to King Beleth and asking him to fill people with passion, and oh boy he works in SECONDS. The same fidgety body language and being nice to me are symptoms. One person texted me and called me, wanting to meet up in 5 mins after using this. Am I using people and playing with them? I genuinely don’t know, as I don’t understand these things, but it is amusing.
I just did AoO Labusi sigil for abundance, and saw a golden ring around me the whole ritual, sometimes flaming inside and on the edges. Let’s see how this book and my attunements work together. I have a hard time connecting with the angels outside of their sigils, but now when doing the sigils I actually feel a connection.
After I got the Lucifer attunement, my connection with him shifted - before I always called in my mind, and then a feeling came that ‘he was here’. After the attunement I couldn’t get the feeling, and started worrying that I lost the connection. In reality, I feel like I do not get this feeling anymore because now he is always here, he cannot come a second time per se. A few days ago, when walking to the store, in frustration, when talking to him, I asked for a sign that he was listening, and asked to see a big L letter anywhere. An hour after when I got home, I remembered that I wanted to check out someone’s post on BALG, so I went and searched them up. When I clicked on their profile, I saw that their profile picture was just a ‘L’ letter, and their bio only contained capitalized L letter. Their name on this forum doesn’t start with L, so it was a weird AI profile picture generation. I took that as a sign that I am listened to.
Got the Aphrodite attunement, and now, whenever I work with her, only communication I have with her are sensations in my body, and audially she communicates only with bubbly, joyous female laughter. Will continue to work with her. After getting her attunement, I have been feeling more love towards a person that I literally with rage and anger yelled at for 10 mins, because I did not like their attitude towards me, but I’ve also been an emotional mess these past few days because of her energy 