Have you learned the basics of the Golden Dawn, like the Pentagram and Hexagram rituals? You can learn the initiate level stuff from any of the public literature released by its members.
From there, you could ask the current itself if you should join the actual order or not.
One option you might want to look into is the OAA, EA’s occult order. While it is no longer on the physical plane, its adepts, the Barons, are active in the astral realms, and will initiate you when you accept the first of the 18 Flames. The only cost to you would be buying a copy of the Discourses and the time spent doing the exercises.
No I’ve learnt just a few basics so far and the NAP version which is trimmed down.
It’s that though where I don’t know what I need to learn… so LBRP and MP and bornless one - that’s where I am at learning. MP is probably one I feel confident in. LBRP - nap version you don’t draw pentagrams and id like to learn that version with them by heart so I don’t have to look at a book/video during it.
If you feel that GD is the route for you then go for it.
As stater earlier the beginner stuff there are many sources on. As EA usually says, find a proved system and Stick to it. Basicly learn it all then you can tweek it. Nothing wrong with the GD system even as you out it ppl argue that its not the real anymore chances att you will not try to get that far up the hierarchy that it Will matter.
Follow your intuition but put im the work needed aswell. I can also recommend some of the texts from Regardi aswell.
There are quite a few versions of the Golden Dawn out there. Only one of them has David Griffin as Imperator. I think he’s rubbish, but thats me. They are a good way to have structured magical training from beginner on.
Quareia is modern, free, and also a good structured program. The A.’.A.’. That is not affiliated with the OTO is also free, but its out dated. Its interesting for those who have had some experience under their belts IMO.
The main thing is to really be committed to whatever you choose. It will all translate into LHP or whatever u want.
This is QUAREIA btw. I wouldnt consider NAP a system. Youre not going to get what you seem to be looking for with NAP. If all you want is spell like instructions NAP is fine. However, it wont give you the training needed to become a competent magician.