Okay so, I know that what I am about to say a psychiatrist would quickly dismiss me as being schizophrenic as I have seen many things that we magicians experience on a daily basis listed in the DSM (diagnostic statistics manual for psychological disorders) as delusional and psychotic behaviors such as seeing and hearing demons, believing that magick is real, believing we have the power to influence change in our lives, and finding hidden meanings in things.
A psychiatrist would simply tell me that I am having a grandiose delusion but, we all know that sometimes demons can send us messages and answers to our questions in the most unexpected ways, like seeing certain symbols or hearing names repeatedly or being lead to a certain book or website thru a dream prophecy.
Earlier, I was watching a show on TV, an occult based show and I found this odd. In one of my songs that I wrote, one I have not published online yet, I speak of taking back what is rightfully ours. About the demons being the original “gods” of this world, their names corrupted by modern religion, cast aside like evil garbage and that one of my goals is to ultimately help these true gods take back what is rightfully theirs and ours. Their recognition as infinite divine type beings and our recognition as magicians, that we are real, that we do have power to influence change. A movement of sorts similar to E.A.'s where he is educating magicians on things that others won’t dare teach you.
Anyway, while watching this show I was completely distracted with an art project and something made me feel like It was necessary to turn my attention to the screen for a moment. Just then, one character says to the magician several things that caught my attention but one of them was “This fight, is about taking back what is rightfully ours” and so on.
That was weird, because I say those exact words all the time in my songs, my spoken poetry recordings, in posts online, and when speaking to the demons and I felt like when watching that, like a demon was saying to me that they acknowledge what I was trying to do with my efforts and that my efforts are not going unnoticed and they are more than happy to help in any way they can. It’s hard to explain without going into extreme detail but It’s about equality, no longer the days of magicians being cast aside as evil beings that should be burned at the stake (past) or ostracized from society (present day).
It’s like they lead me to watch that knowing I would take it as a message of sorts because of what was said. Like someone was speaking directly to me with everything that was said to the magician in that show. Has anyone ever had that happen to them? Something like this where it feels undoubtedly that something was speaking to you thru a statement in a book, movie, or something similar? Or am I experiencing a textbook case of what psychiatrists call a grandiose delusion?