Really scary experience after summoning King Lucifer (Unsuccessful?)

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PRIOR TO SUMMONING
Hello. This was such an intimidating experience. I was reading Lucifer and the Hidden Demons during my drive to the hotel to prepare my summoning. I had a very stressful day involving money but I calmed down after as I planned this exact day to summon. I had a very insightful reading with this book. I already tried to summon King Lucifer before (in my previous post) and this time I decided to do it with more preparation. I first summoned him to tune into his energy to know him and for this summoning that was when I wanted to establish dialogue with him. I felt prepared more than ever to contact him now and I wrote my questions down.

As I got to the hotel, I shut all of the lights off. It was 8pm. I didn’t really focus on where I was facing at the time but I was facing South. I did LBRP before this too, had sage and 3 candles with me of white, black, and red. I had my turmoline stone too.

Typically, I am afraid of the dark… severely… but I came with the mindset of fuck it and my only focus was King Lucifer and nothing else. My will felt very strong that I did not care about the other energies that try to influence me. I kept reading on my phone for his einn. I started chanting his einn.

PREPARING THE SUMMONING
(I took mushrooms prior to this to enhance my ability to sense and hear).

When they kicked in, I felt all sorts of energies in the room which I was able to ignore because I was so focused on King Lucifer and nothing else. I didn’t give a shit about any other thoughts that made me wonder of other shit. I did hear things that try to get into my head but I kept ignoring; this made me feel safe from potential attacks. I am also well aware that you can lose control with mushrooms or any substances but I really needed to do this. I needed to feel.

I quickly looked into protection spells on YouTube and quickly heard a few pages from a book in summoning him. I prepared my questions and one of the questions was asking him how I can enhance my psychic abilities as I am already clairvoyant and clairaudient but not at will. I also added a question as to how I can channel my anger in a beneficial way as I still suffer from anger issues.

WHAT WENT DOWN
As I chanted his mantra several times whilst channeling my intent to summon him as I glanced at his glowing sigil, I felt a shift in the room. I felt no more energies in the room. The room was of only once presence as I chanted his einn for the 6th time. I looked straight ahead from me and I felt a tall presence and if I had to say, it felt like a tall skinny cloak, but I could not see. So, I closed my eyes. My intuition told me to stay silent. I let his energy wrap around me and in my mind’s eye, I saw nothing but a warm orange light and the temperature started feeling really warm. I felt breathing and a mid-tone male voice but it wasn’t audible (it was through my mind’s eye). Voice didn’t form sentences. They were just sounds. I was so distracted by this feeling of sensing him that I forgot to even ask him questions. I felt my intuition tell me… “ok are you going to ask him now…?” But I felt that I should listen before I talk in my mind. I heard breathing so close to my ears that I opened my eyes. His presence was hard to sense after I opened them. I started coming back to reality heavy but I shut my eyes quick and began to ask him anyway since I heard nothing else, I began to talk.

I told him what I wanted. I kept saying telepathically how I wanted to learn wanted to learn wanted to learn. I had trouble hearing. Then, I constantly heard a thought “why?” I was interrogated as to why I wanted this and I felt that I needed a good reason. Deep down, I wanted to grow but then I also added that I also want to be a medium for people (as I have channeled dead people in the past but not as a job, more so it was random). I said I cannot do this when “sober” and it will be great to not depend on this to hear and see. My other questions weren’t really answered. It was that question that was talked about and emphasized and then I heard “Well, you already have the ability.” I was confused. Then, I heard voices in the background saying that I cheated. And eventually I felt like I didn’t deserve this power. Then, I heard “idiot” and “foolish” in the background but I can’t tell if they were other voices or his. It began to sound like a group though. I tried not to give a shit about those voices and so I was stern about wanting to learn regardless but as I reinstated my will, I was told how much of a brat I was.

I freaked the hell out and I looked back at my notebook trying to recoup. I moved onto the next question and asked how to channel my anger to something beneficial? I am not sure if I am supposed to get the answer now or to just request that and wait till it takes affect as I live my day to day but that was how I asked anyway. Overall, I wanted to emotionally grow and have a sense of emotional maturity/responsible/independent but then started questioning myself. I detected no answer. I thought that I had trouble hearing. I felt this whip of confusion that eventually took toll into a severe headache and I started asking myself what the hell I even wanted?

THE AFTERMATH
My head hurt so much that I decided to turn on the lights and lay in bed for a second to recoup before going back into it. I had trouble breathing. Took a sip of water. I felt severely mocked and I kept asking myself why does it even matter or why does it bother me? Could it be the root of my anger issues? I told myself this was not the time to do shadow work. I already thought I knew enough about myself and have done the work needed. Apparently, I haven’t? No matter how many questions I asked myself, I felt more confused than ever. What the hell happened?

I went back to the chair and turned the lights off again to continue this with my best ability but when I did, I started becoming afraid of the dark again as I thought I saw 2 human figures with grey/whitish glow laying down on the two beds of the hotel room. I flipped the lights on and decided to stop this. I said under my breath “Thank you King Lucifer” anyway.

I decided to sleep this headache off. I was scared I lost myself. I woke up and thank goodness that I am still okay and still myself. I felt this feeling before too when I was bullied and it lasted months. Thank goodness this only lasted till this morning! I’m OK!

What happened?
Apologies for this long long post. This was absolutely terrifying and I vividly remember every detail.

I was really confident going into summoning but I don’t even know how this happened. Truly… no idea. Not sure what this even means other than the fact I probably fucked up.

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Ignoring the specific purpose of the post being about Lucifer, I urge you to practice self soothing techniques and breathing.
When you’re internally freaking out you can mess with the connection you form with the spirit.

The very first thing I’d tell you to practice is grounding and your balance. I like to sit in Seiza and Half-Lotus when I meditate and practice because these sitting positions help me feel grounded and stable.
I also keep water or a comfort drink near me for after I finish a ritual(s) to help me tune out of that state of mind and back into the “normal” world.

If you’re feeling vulnerable, remember that the spirit at that moment is bound to your rules as long as you remain respectful. @DarkestKnight pointed out to me that if I wanted to do evocation with my siblings near, then all I need to do is tell the spirit not to interfere with my siblings.
They work on your rules as they appear on your turf and space. Set it very clearly and they will obey.

You can also form protective barriers or a circle to sit in. Look on the forum for mirror shields, I like to set my intention as “May any parasitical or with malicious intent be struck back trifold” so mine would detect intention and if it isn’t good, then it can’t enter.
I trace a circle around myself when I work and say “Halphas” while I imagine that I’m being surrounded in a dome of solid stone.
Halphas is a spirit in Goëtia that is officed to form strong walls and barriers suitable for war for context.

Make sure to clarify your intent before you summon and practice. You can practice this by writing it down in a journal multiple times or reading it back to yourself multiple times. Or you can say it out loud/internally whatever works for you.

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Thanks. The thing is that I did feel very prepared when going into summoning. When I felt psychically attacked, I tried several times to go back into it but the physical feeling has made me unable to recoup. I think I may have to work on myself further after doing this. I concluded that because I get easily distracted… it will mess with my summoning/my intent/will.

I learned from this summoning that in real life I feel guilty of asking for help and I completely forgot about this. When I summoned King Lucifer, I wanted to be as respectful as possible because I truly respect King Lucifer since I was young even before I was introduced to the occult because of what I feel that he stands for as he is the sole symbol of rebellion and independence/self-enlightenment.

So when I summoned him, I wanted to show my will but all of a sudden I felt like I was being rude and a brat by feeling this way and so I was just afraid of disrespecting him. Not sure if I pissed him off either by choking on my questions/if he was fucking with me or if that was him or if something else truly interfered or fucked with me.

But yes… aside from this summoning, I have grounded myself before this. Perhaps not as good of a grounding as I thought…

I also wonder if there have been practitioners that are advanced that have fucked up like this before as a beginner or if they actually got it right for the first time because they knew what they were doing before even doing this. I feel so dumb.

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To add on, the voices in the background could very much be your own untreated shadow or ego saying that you’re not worthy, if you don’t identify that they’re just trying to make you doubt you can fall into bad states of mind (unworthiness, psychosis), so keep an eye on them, the first thing to fully treat this is by knowing yourself. Hence the the saying of “Know Thyself”

Obs: In my experience with Lucifer is that depending on the egregore you’re calling to it can very much be different, so your own experience is different to other people. My understanding of Lucifer show me that his most higher “aspect”/egregore is a high-being, because of that, he’s the last to get angry, and I certainly wouldn’t be mad at you for just wanting to get better… Quite the contrary!

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Yup! This was my shadow and ego. I remember this feeling before when the shadow and ego was triggered. This makes a lot of sense. If I would have known that this was my ego and shadow talking then I would have gotten out of that confusion/headache. At that time when I heard all of this, I thought I was being messed with or tested.

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To me it sounds like you’ve been questioning your own choices, thoughts and your credibility too much.
Maybe it was needed to experience it in this heavy way to learn that you have to learn to stand tall and trust in yourself. Don’t take shit from anyone. Have a little faith in yourself. Respect for yourself.

It kind of does sound like a lesson to me.
It definitely made you realize that you haven’t done enough shadow work, and that are remaining patterns that you’re pushing down?

Lucifer always points out to me when I start talking myself down, or question myself out of insecurity or, well, past trauma.

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Meditate on a regular basis and for increasing intervals. Start at 5 minutes, then 10, then 15, and then 20. Most of my invocations don’t even last as long as 20 minutes, some I can finish in 5 depending on how fast the spirit comes, but I’m still meditating the entire time.
This will help your attention span and focus on the rituals. Aforementioned clarifying intent is a very hepful way of setting all of those little details clear before you summon.

It is good to be respectful, but remember to be careful and not give them total control over you. I only bow to one spirit out of respect and that is it, and this is only because they recognize that I’m Left Handed and I do it only out of gesture.
Know your genuine worth, and let no one else claim it otherwise.

I have a ring with snakes intertwining a red jewel in reference to this. But it is not for Lucifer as its a symbol of my rebellion against Dogma and poor indoctrination. In reference to but never for.

As Mulberry said: “He’s a big boy, he’ll get over it”.
The chance you genuinely upset a spirit because you underestimated them is a very indifferent thing to them. They probably get summoned hundreds of times a day, so they’re aware that certain people are just curious and are wanting to explore and grow. It’s not offensive because it wasn’t your intention to offend him. Put it that way.

Mistakes aren’t exclusive. I’ve probably done 30-40 Invocations total and sometimes I still forget the small details (nothing that I don’t correct once I realize).
No one is perfect. Not me, not you, not anyone on this forum. That is ego and to become a skillful practitioner you must smite it.
It’s more a matter of how many mistakes and how frequently when it comes to skill gap.

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perhaps calling on gods while high isnt the wisest idea? i fail to see how it is practical as you cant verifiably confirm if the things you hear are a result of your hallucinations or if they are real. perhaps learning to sense spirits without psychedelics is a good idea?

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You dont need drugs to practice magic, in my opinion. While you are high, you are very prone to deceive yourself by creating worlds that are only in your head.

How can you discern that those voices you heard are in fact spirits and not the mushies talking to you as Reiki_healer333 said?

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I’ve heard that for some people, trance state is easier to get into while on some form of psychedelic but I’m straight edge and can’t really say much on the actual experience of it.