I decided to take a break from magic to see how my life was going to unfold without it and I came to the conclusion that a lot had to do with where I am living. You know LA/Hollywood can be a very shitty place in terms of how people behave here, not people in general but where I was hanging out so yeah, I had to see that for myself first and understand that it wasn’t something like I was doing magic wrong.
Now with this being said, E.A. completely fucking nailed in this last email he sent of being cursed. I think I’ve had that question most of my life because I’ve had to overcome and I still am overcoming tons of shit daily. Honestly, I haven’t met someone that had to go such a hard path as I have in terms of constant life challenges in multiple areas of my life.
Anyways, the point of this post is because for 6 months now I’ve been trying to overcome the situation that I am in at the moment, and like E.A. said not only are you running out of money, your relationships are hurting, my computer got water over it and completely broke, I just got hired for a day in a job that I hated because my “legal docs” werent right. I am behind my rent. The funny thing is what E.A. said it doesn’t matter if you are working 10 times harder there is still nothing you can do about. And this is exactly where I’ve been. Like I’ve been devoted on changing this and no matter how many hours I’ve put into this, how much pain I’ve been going through, life is just not giving me a fucking break and I am sick of this shit.
Now, I know I am not cursed based on what E.A. said, he said there was a small chance of this happening, I think of it all the time but basically my life has been a struggle for as long as I have memory so yeah, I think is just that I had a shitty environment where I was living and a piece of shit subconscious programming that has taken me my entire energy and devotion for changing it.
Now, with this being said. I am tired of this fucking situation where I am at the moment. This job for the day showed me that I HATE doing things I dont like doing especially being paid peanuts for it. I HATE not being able to do the things I want to do and honestly I am sick and tired of this shit.
I am just going to run my own business that I am passionate about and get my income from there and get the money that I need to do the things I love.
My question to you guys is to anybody that has overcome this with the help of magic. Do I have to like lose everything and go homeless go without food go without anything before I can change my life or what the fuck? Or can a sigil actually help me turn this situation right now.
I’ve been doing evocation for a week now and I’ve been using the magic square for money that is in the companion book and Halah’thor for turning this shit around but so far I haven’t got any results yet. I’ve also been using Mepisthal to help me gain spiritual abilities so that I can full evoke spirits.
Honestly I feel them, I hear them and I see them inside my mind, like if I see the scrying mirror I see foggy white on it. But usually when I evoke spirits my eyes just roll upwards and I start having a good solid communication with them. But those this guarantees me results or do I have to actually see them in the scrying mirror? Which sigils do you recommend me to get me out of this shitty financial situation that I am in?
Thank you guys as always