Raven's Nest

Journals, Group Rituals & Free Readings
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10/27/24

I finally after all this time found my way back to my wall. Not only to my wall but I was able to go inside of it again. I hadn’t been able to go inside my wall since the trauma, that scarred me to the core.

I was able to go inside the temple with ease and I saw my wall. Touching the wall , I was able to easily move through the wall and back inside of my room, in the wall.

A lovely small room with a bed and dresser, rocking chair and music box that sits on the dresser. It is a peaceful place to just rest.

I enter the wall and crashed on my bed. It felt so nice to be home that I just wanted to rest.

I think I can understand the old testament when , god said build me a place to rest. It’s strange that you get so tired you just need to let the spirit rest. For awhile, some place safe.

Sometimes, I wonder why this wall and this place pulls me to it more than the other places, I am sure there are other places, but this one is where I have always felt was a home.

On days I’m feeling really strong , I feel as though I might physically walk through this wall. But then what would that say about me? And am I ready for the answer to my own question. But on those days I feel so close, more there than I am in my own living room. I feel like if I’m in my room in the wall, I could slip from there to being in temple, not just in spirit but that my body could do it. But I hold myself back. Maybe, it’s knowing if I did and couldn’t get back I would be stuck far away :sweat_smile:
Or maybe sometimes I just feel to strong for my own good.

Either way it was lovely to be home. I was surprised that it seemed just it did before inside the wall.

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10/28/24

My thinking is , you don’t know if you can do something or not unless you try.

So, I layer out my universal circle on the floor. Sat in the center of it. And put on this meditation music.

I was found the inside of the wall and my safe haven easily enough. Sitting inside the wall criss cross applesauce, just as I was sitting in my universal circle. Only in the wall there were white candles lit around me that formed the circle.

I sat feeling the wall and taking meditative breaths. The wall began to breath with me. With each inhale and exhale the wall did the same. Like we were a set of lungs breathing together.

Some force pushed me to lie back. So there I was laying in my universal circle and laying in the circle of candles in the wall.

Something shifted and I was laying in the center of candles but I wasnt , I wearing a black cloak and standing with my face close to the wall. I was holding something. It was circular like a piece of metal that was shaped to make a circular pattern. It fit in my palm and in the center was something red. It doesn’t look a key but it felt like a key. I turned my hand with it in it. Like it would work like a key. I don’t understand this thing. But it must be some type of key.

As I was standing there pondering over this key, my two angels whom I spoken about somewhere else on this forum appeared at my back.

Which is interesting because I don’t recall them ever appearing in the wall before.

I looked at each of them , as if to ask, what??

One angel is light the other is dark.

The angel of light looked and me and said , “draw a door.”

I’m guessing draw a door and create a portal?

Unfortunately, it’s time for me to get ready for work. So I will have to try this on my next adventure.

I’m sure I won’t achieve this right away if at all. But I’m set on trying it because I feel it. And if I feel it , I should be able to do it.

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Gonna working on this again tonight. On Halloween. :jack_o_lantern:. Maybe I can draw the door/gateway.

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Tonight I got into my relaxed state. Felt myself being back in the wall. I can see through the wall and the big star on the other side.

The two angels are still at my back. I still have the key thing. But I’m also holding what I think is a piece of chalk.

Interestingly, on my side of the wall there are now two tables about the height of end tables spaced apart enough for me to draw the door/ gateway between them. I’m not sure where they came from or their purpose but they are there.

I stand there in front of the wall not sure of myself, should I proceed or not. My own fear holds me back. What if I do it? What I fail?

But when you fail you simply try again, and again again, ever how many tries it takes that what you do.

The fear welled up inside of me so much I literally was crying and shaking. But I think in the end I’m more afraid of not trying at all, than trying and failing.

Something from my old high school days popped into my head. A sign that used be on the school track.

“Winners never quit, quitters never win”

Just try again and again.

I take some deep breaths and the wall changes on my side. I’ve always seen the wall as like looking through a sheer curtain. Where you can see through to the other side.

But it’s changed now. It’s a dark dark blue. It looks like the night sky, with tiny stars twinkling.
Ok. I’ve found several portals in the constellations. Somehow, this comforts me. It reminds of my work with the necrocomicon (probably so not spelling that right) but when I was walking the gates, I had to draw them out, I drew them archways.

The two angels leaned in and both said draw the door.

I that no matter what, everything happens in the spiritual/ astral realms first and then the physical, so I have to walk through this gate astrally first before anything will happen physically. As above so below.

I take another deep breath and draw out the archway, the door/ gateway through the wall.

Once I do I can still see the big star on the other side of the wall. But on my side where I draw the gateway, feels and looks almost like a black mirror. It’s interesting.

I try to push on hand through the door, much like do when I’m reading a circle and first touch the flames.

I push my hand through and then the other hand. I’m about to step through when I remember there are guitars on the other side. I don’t want to knock them over. But I push on through. I have moved through the wall and am standing on the other side… I feel accomplished. Even it was the astral it took a lot of work. And I know this is the first very big step. First the spiritual and then the physical.

I take a deep breath and am about to move back through the wall, when I get a vision. It’s of a statue that was in a circle reading I had done yesterday. Its light up somehow, a light ? Or candles close by? But it’s lite. The place it sits in is dim. But the statue is lit somehow.

I close my eyes, and open them inside the statue. :statue_of_liberty:

Magick is in this room tonight. I feel it, I know it’s there…

I step back through the wall. And bring myself back.

There seems to be a lot for me to process and the night is still young. This Halloween has been very interesting for sure.

This the music I used to night for my flight :sweat_smile::jack_o_lantern::ghost::bat:

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^ 10/31/24 was the work above.

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Holy shit!!! I didn’t know it, I didn’t realize what I was holding until I saw a picture while scrolling on YouTube just now this it!!

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That’s what was seeing. That’s the thing that doesn’t look like a key to me but feels like a key.

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So now I find myself wondering what to do next. Should I repeat this until it physically manifests? Or should I put it out of sight out of mind until it manifests?

There are several different directions I could take. Perhaps, I should wait until I feel a pull and then move in that direction.

I have other projects I could focus on until it comes to me what my next move here should be.

But as I’m writing this , I feel myself on the other side of the wall. Inside the temple area. I’m wearing the black cloak. I’m not sure why I’m cloaked. I’ve been in this temple a million times.

It feels empty which is odd. Not empty as nothing in it. There are things in it. But empty. Like the magician is away. Sort of like when a friend goes on a vacation and asks you to check on their house. And it feels empty, because they aren’t there.

I’m not sure why I feel this, or why it’s what I’m picking up on.

There’s this red, snake like thing that comes in like a wind. And wraps around me and then moves to face me. As if welcoming me or wondering where I’ve been. It’s intelligent. You can interact with it. But I don’t know fully how to describe it. It’s like a million particles formed to create this entity.

Perhaps it’s the magicians consciousness. I close my eyes and go inside his mind. I’ve been there before. Castle Grey Skull. :skull:

Once you learn how to walk around in the mind , there is an exact replica of the temple area. But there are other rooms too.

I can’t put my finger on what’s different . It’s too calm for on thing. This is usually the roller coaster magician. Full on adrenaline rush.

I take some deep breaths and still myself. Perhaps a touch of healing. I sit in a meditative state and send a current of healing through the mind. A golden strand of light. It seems into the mind and feels the tissues and marrow with its golden healing glow.

What’s this a new book? Don’t mind if I do. :sweat_smile:

It’s a solid book with a strong leather cover. I open it and see the words written in black ink…

I see the first chapter… :shushing_face:

I feel the healing has taken hold and see new projects. So, my work is done. For now. It’s nice to be back.

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It’s like a miniature me is still inside the skull cloaked in black with flecks of gold. It’s like several currents of electricity is flowing from me to several different locations in the mind. Like continuous healing currents being sent throughout.

It gives off the vibes of an electricity ball. Like this picture.

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It’s like a small me, in a constant state of sending healing frequency.

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At the other place with the statue. I’ve been seeing it with flames. Like it’s on fire but not consuming. I’m not sure if it some how burns or if there are candles around. But I see fire every time look , as if looking through the statues eyes.

But I see it separately as well and there are flames. Fire :fire:

I’m not sure exactly how to put into words what I’m seeing and experiencing with this.

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I see I was right about the fire. :fire:

The statue thing ( a skeleton) and the candles.

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The more I review , the skeleton, the hand holding a candle , the pentagram hanging. The light , then all the fire.

I was on point with that reading. And I posted my reading and other things I saw days and hours before I watched the clip. And it’s time and date stamped on YouTube and here.

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This looks really similar to the labyrinthine wheel of Hecate, but you might be aware of that already.

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Have you done work with Hekate?