I feel for you pal, I was on gear for three years, I went through the methadone treatment and took the doses down steadily over 6 weeks. Been off it 4 years now, stopped smoking cigarettes too. The thing is this, you cannot STOP doing something, I tried, when I changed my mindset from concentrating on not doing it and concentrated on what I actually want from life i.e. get back into training, get a girlfriend, have a child, get control of my wealth and health, that’s exactly what I did, so now 4 years later got a girlfriend, child, got money coming in and I’m fit as a butchers dog.
All of the above aside I feel you have some neg/spirit attachments and some core images trapped in you energy body, these are manifesting as your need to use, now I didn’t post this to preach to ya, I may have a solution, I have posted in the healing section offering a free healing demonstration and if you would like to give it a bash I would love to help you out, choice is yours, take care.
PEACE
FRANK