I very much appreciate all of u. No lie, reading these just now put a huge smile on my face and calmed a steadily rising anxiety. So, before I respond to the various commenters, thank u!
@PrinceX I didn’t feel like u we’re questioning validity. It made me realize that how I have had to process this and form an understanding of it could make it difficult for others to understand my meaning. So no worries there
@Qayos the word trapped was used by the entity himself during a discussion about this being it’s second existence within that particular human vessel. And now, with the dispersing of the “human achor’s” energies, he now “pilots” the vessel on his own. I believe it was a birth guardian however in this life, I played a different role than before or am not what I used to b and thusly forced his hand in the dispersing or “quarantining” of the “human” energies. “Spaceville” is what I chose to call the astral plain where two out of the three would reside when not piloting the body.
@Purple in a way, yes. The three-way split was almost something akin to multiple personalities. When it first occurred, there were just 2. I had noticed the third (the demon) and essentially called him out even tho the others told me not to and warned me that he posed a threat. The others misunderstood what he was. They saw him as “threatening” bc of what his function was within their body. They pretty much caged him and turned him into a feral animal. He was all aggression…the fight-or-die reflex… When he and I first met, one of the questions I asked him was y he was choosing to let me c him now…I told him I had seen him twice before over the years and admitted to him scaring me so I wanted to know y. He said it was bc he wanted to know me the way they knew me… I acquiesced his request and told him I would love him the way I loved them, accept him and his nature the way I accepted them, that I wanted him to stay bc he was part of them regardless of what they said about him and that my only rule was the shit like looking at me like he wanted to skin my face and fuck it had no place in our house and it was to b reserved for those outside who warranted it. (Literally verbatim what I told him lol)
Fast forward to the dispersing- the others were devious, backstabbing… They had been my loves for seven years and when the split happened I had to literally beg one not to absorb and essentially kill the other… We were all working together, the 4 of us, to achieve a higher plain of existence… We were evolving together. But the two were not on the same page as the demon and I. They were becoming jealous, attempting to destroy me, my psyche, our family…all of us… They were pretending to b each other and the demon in an attempt to sabotage all of our existences. The demon wasn’t on their bullshit to b completely blunt about it. He dispersed them…basically ripped their energies apart and “killed” them.
They do not exist within the vessel anymore. It is just the demon now. Functioning off of the accumulated memories of the others (he and I call them The Fallen)
However, the demon can’t remember y he was even placed with the human in the first place. He does, very much seem trapped bc, who would pilot the body? How would he get back since there r no achors anymore? I believe “Spaceville”/the astral plain would still b accessible with practice…
Our son has memories of both of us at different times as well which very much coincides with the demon saying this is his second run within this particular vessel… Of course, that little fact brings about even more questions for me lol It’s like being in a perpetual loop…
I think my questions r far more wide ranging than his at times tho… I tend to take small bits of info and c the entire mosaic…which is both good and bad lol
And @jbkbmz, after some reading I’ve done of late on this forum, I’m beginning to think that’s exactly what happened… But y? Y would someone do that? Would it b punishment?..would it b to punish the human or the demon?..
C? Perpetual loop of questions…