Sooo…old neighbor nearly kicked the bucket, is incoherent, fell, has or had tdk or a petit mal seizure.
Needless to say, he has been battling like I battle, becoming institutionalized. It’s not the time spent that causes it, it’s the life trauma endured and the care received in a new place. The mindset of being institutionalized is a 180 here than a corrections facility I would imagine.
So… rituals won’t be done today. Perhaps tomorrow.
This is why silence is the fourth law for students.
Since the roommate will have a visit from his family, after visiting hours he may be asleep.
That will be my opportunity.
They snuck out….so so did what I could. I will do the Middle Pillar Ritual and meditate once the folks have left.
RITUALS PERFORMED: Adoration to the Lord of the Universe. Morning Adoration. Shining Crosses Ritual. Qabballistic Cross Ritual. Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram. Qabballistic Cross Ritual. LRVH Noon Adoration.Adoration to the Lord of the Universe. LRVH Evening Adoration. Adoration to the Lord of the Universe.
PERFORMANCE: Good, though voice was low, and it was hurried through. Done in time.
RESULTS: Should have a sacred space and a clean sphere of sensation. Will do Middle Pillar Ritual and meditation before sleep.
DATE: 11/30/2025
DAY: Sunday, day of Sol. YHVH Eloah ve Daath, Michael, Malachim. Gold candles and Frankincense incense.
TIME: 12:45 PM PST
MOON PHASE:
WEATHER:. 70s and sunny, partly.cloudy.
SLEEP: Three hours last night, choppy.
DREAMS: None recalled.
PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Feeling a little tired.
MENTAL CONDITIONS: Trying to read high magic. Trying at that to read Thelema.
MOOD: Good.
RITUALS PERFORMED: BA. Adorations. Shining Crosses Ritual. Qabballistic Cross Ritual. Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram. Qabballistic Cross Ritual. Greater Invoking Sol Ritual of the Hexagram. Meditation. Middle Pillar Ritual. Charge and License to Depart.
PERFORMANCE:
RESULTS:
Pentacle used as Shining Crosses Ritual.
THOUGHTS:
TASKS:
Got up and got into Wheelchair. Had breakfast. Used restroom. Did Physical Therapy and walked in walker 125 feet. Applied deodorant. Brushed hair. Brushed teeth after lunch.
No work was done today.
Over the course of last night and today, I have been given a Bible and a New Testament book. A sign from above?
My sister came by today to give me clean clothing, brought a Diet Pepsi, and Krispy Kreme donuts. She gave me three - two raspberry filled and glazed donuts and one glazed donut.
She also brought me some Thanksgiving leftovers.
I feel loved.
I was going to say as well that it was a coincidence that if we say Christ was a solar deity, I received two New Testaments and a Full KKV Bible within two days, and only had the opportunity yesterday to do the LBRP after the Adorations and Shining Crosses Ritual.
Today is Monday, day of Luna. It would be interesting to meet a moon worshipper today.
It is an interesting coincidence that I’m tired right now but not enough to sleep and dream.
Are you sure this is just a coincidence? Maybe you are scaring the religious folk 
That’s quite possible, especially when I tell.thwm what I do in detail, and when I listen to things like:
What, oh what is in the details of Air and of Yetzirah…
Let’s start with … The qualities of Air. Air is as an Element warm and moist. Air triplicity is Gemini (Mercury), Libra (Venus), Aquarius (Saturn).
Warm and moist air examples…Clouds, gaseous elements such as oxygen, carbon dioxide and oxygen as breath elements. I assume we could go on, but nothing else comes to mind at the moment.
Lunar qualities or associations…Moon phases (waning, waxing, new, full). Astral plane and astral travel. Meditation.
At lunch time, I tried to chant along after the Invocation, to the best of my ability.
I fell asleep, and had paper and pen, and my phone at hand as well. No dream details were recalled.
The night is young however. I may try to re enter an old dream, or try to do air grade exercíses.
After dinner will delve into some reading. Will also try to invoke the Four Powers of Air and a Luna invoking Hexagram.
Will be doing the following rituals:
Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram
Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram
Invoking the Four Powers of Earth
Greater Invoking Ritual of the Hexagram (Mars).
Meditation while doing Middle Pillar Ritual.
Give Charge.
Meditation and Communion.
License to Depart.
Middle Pillar Ritual.
Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram.
Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram.
I’ve relayed a similar formula to do today in my personal journal.
Heights and Drowning are understandable, but in my case it’s almost a neurotic level of a phobia.
Not going to test it, but I need real time ways to cope with the triggered phobia.
RITUALS PERFORMED:
Adorations.
Shining Crosses Ritual
Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram
Adorations.
Middle Pillar Ritual TBD
Meditation TBD
Adorations TBD.
Planet of the Day TBD
Tarot Contemplation Ritual TBD
Did Neophyte Formula.
Will do work that can be done on and in my bed. Some actually can. Just not rituals requiring movement.
Perhaps these chances were not laziness in the full days activities, but a heads up that I need to do everything every day, including art and writing assignments.
So … Mars day and phobias.
A new breed of insect occasionally gets in the room at times. It scared me at first and last night it scurried toward me. A scorpion but the size and color of a German cockroach. Fast as a cockroach but not a spider. I felt like smacking it, but that makes noise, and it was early early morning.
I got over it and went to sleep.
Wednesday, day of Mercury. We will see what the day holds after invoking Mercury with invoked Spirit LRP.
Elohim Tzabaoth, Raphael, Beni Elohim.
The goal … Daily magic rituals get done despite opinion of others, and magic power increases greatly, what is set as a magic goal is what manifests exactly.
Today is Thursday, which is associated with Jupiter. Will do at a convenient time.
Convenient time but not place. Half of the rituals I’ve forgotten how to do. So Neophyte Formula done. Zelator Formula and Planet of the Day not done.
Sítting up on bed thinking. Results. Godhood.
Isn’t that what we’re here for? Independence as well.
So planetary force and form, these already imply a previous or currently existing creator.
Consciousness. This could be the one thing to just come into being. Or a by product of evolution. Still, something had to create someone. Consciousness is one thing or being that could create itself.
Consciousness, Godhood, Results.
Time, Space, Reality.
Thought, Structure, Being/Manifestation.
SMART Goals are a necessary tool to use with these patterns.
It may escape the understanding of the reader as to what the difference is of my different journals.
This one is supposed to be a record of a ritual that involves transformation via planetary alignment on the day and hour of the planet with tangible results. Theoricus Journal is my personal journal as to completion of working through my main textbook reading and obvious resulting self transformation. Finally, the astrology journal is my journal of understanding and resulting divination via astrology.
Venus day. Not going to promise yet alone over promise, but need to at least find something in common with Venus today, as it’s the day of Venus. Healing, nature, green.
As I’m in a nursing home and face a wall of vine leaves .. and a flower bush with yellow flowers, so nature is apparent. Victory is a title given to Netzach.
I walked to the Activities room and back, a first for me. In a supercharged Walker no less. A victory, a small yet large win.
I am on day three and as of today have not cheated. Day one if you’re a stickler. A small yet large win.
I’ve been honest with myself today, I’ve not completed all of the checklist for Neophyte or Zelator from Christopher’s book. I’ve not completed being able to do all from Kraig’s book. Privacy and lack of interruption as the problem. Failure.
I am able to influence nature to a very small degree. My anxiety did not overcome me. Small wins.
All in all, Netzach, Victory, Venus, nature.