Pile 2:
Pile 2 Group has really been through something lately, hm? Right off the bat I was feeling a paralyzing heaviness and powerlessness weighing on me before I even laid out all cards.
It seems as if you guys do struggle with depression or that youâve been feeling very low for quite some time, already. This might be a bit of a heavy reading overall but I have the feeling that some people need to see this to feel seen and to acknowledge whats going on inside of them.
Kipper card number 31 (âSerious illnessâ, which is an interpretation of the Artist. Its usually âshort termed illnessâ, which is a more optimistic and realistic take in the classic Kipper context!) and Kipper card number 20 (âHouseâ/âStabilityâ) go together with the Eight of Swords, Mountain, Moon and Mice. This has written âDepressionâ all over it (for some of this group this might be in a clinical context, for others it seems to be connected to a rather recent event) and the House card in that context points towards an environment that doesnât quite know how to react to the hardship that you guys are going through.
The Lovers in reverse and the Knight of Swords in reverse together with the Mountain and the Moon are pointing out that some people close to you are reacting rather insensitive or harsh towards your situation. Do your loved ones demand of you to âget your act togetherâ or to âsuck it upâ? Moon and Mice in an isolated pattern suggest that some of you guys feel guilty for not simply âgetting betterâ, as theyâve suggested. Which feeds the cycle of feeling powerless and trapped in the face of your feelings even more (Eight of Swords). Some of you guys might be faced with several different suggestions about how to âget betterâ in a frequent way (like on social media), making everything even more overwhelming because nothing seems to work out.
Here is the thing: we have the Strength card here, in all of this. Together with the Eight of Swords, the Four of Cups in reverse and the Lovers in reverse it suggests that you WILL be able to get out of this mental rut if youâll manage to hold yourself accountable for your conscious internal thoughts. A lot of outside circumstances are out of our direct control, deep rooted programs in our minds will need a lot of active work to be formed into a functional thought and behaviour pattern. But how we talk to ourselves inside our heads is in our control. âI am a failureâ or âThis will never work because I am XYâ should be consciously replaced with realistic kindness.
âI did my best todayâ, âI managed to do the dishesâ or âI was able to read a chapter from that one bookâ should be in your toolkit of daily self reflection.
Youâd be surprised how fast youâll stack little successes up inside of your head like this. (again, Four of Cups in reverse = self-awareness!)
Iâve pulled a Rumi Oracle card for you guys; Iâve figured that these cards are great for gentle self-awareness without hitting it into your teeth. Iâve pulled âThe Lion and the Deerâ for you guys. Its basically about bringing two supposedly conflicting sides together into one conscious being: the gentleness, the softness, the quietness together with the fierceness,the boldness,and the readiness to throw hands. Its okay to be soft; it doesnât degrade the warrior inside of you guys one bit. Being gentle with yourself also nurtures the âstrongâ aspect in yourself.
Here is the authors take on this card:
Summary
"This oracle brings you a special message: you are rediscovering a part of yourself that has been lost or submerged underneath âmore practicalâ concerns. Of course, if practicality is about survival then learning to be your true self is most essential and practical! All other paths lead to death of the soul!
You are asked to bear the chaos of this rediscovery. It may be that talents from this or other lifetimes are reawakened and cause you some discomfort at first, even though they will ultimately bring joy and greater fulfillment. The discomfort may be around how those talents are best expressed, about overcoming shame, guilt, doubt or other judgments. It may even be about who you are, if you now admit your talent or other emerging personality traits. Perhaps what is being unearthed in you now is darker â your sacred rage, refusal to accept disrespect in your life, your inability to tolerate lies and deceptions. Well then, you are the lion, and the deer. That is nature. There is to be both in the world. You are not becoming contradictory or hypocritical. You are becoming whole.
The guidance this oracle brings you is that you shall prosper most now if you are willing to unbecome what you have believed yourself to be. It was never really true anyway, that view. It was partial at best; and just a view, an identity, not a genuine reality. Some of your previous sense of self shall likely come with this transition into the fuller experience of your being, and some of that previous identity shall be shed as far too limiting. It just wonât feel true for you anymore, if it ever did.
Any crisis or confusion this brings you shall be temporary fuel to ignite the divine fires within."
As I am not reading for an individual but for a collective and dominant collective energy (= what yells the loudest receives my attention) it could be that none of the piles are currently related to your specific situation.
