Going read through the first exercise and work on it, then come back here to document. I feel like I always try to rush through things, gonna take some work for me go nice and steady.
I glanced through some pages already just getting a feel for it. I have some questions I’m curious about but at the same time I don’t want to get too caught up in all the (but why) questions and lose the experience of it.
I worked through lession one. Which is a mediation, followed by seeing and feeling your surroundings in a dark room. Seeing your surroundings and seeing through them. Seeing a black fog form and move and interact around you and in the dark room.
I never felt like I was falling through dimensions but I did find myself wanting to play with the fog. To have a game of touchy feely and had refocus, bringing myself back in alignment with the exercise.
This was lessions 1 and 2. To become aware of eternity and have it aware of you.
The book says to do this exercise no more than three times a day and at least 3 hours apart. That is once for today so far. Also, you should repeat this exercise until it doesn’t feel like an exercise , so to speak.
Personally, the breathing felt more like work to me than seeing my surroundings or the fog. The fog came as soon as I thought about it.
Side Note: after doing lessons one and two I was chilling on my sofa and felt something in my hand. It was a lovely bottle , like those perfume type bottles but made of a crystal. It was a very pretty shade of pink, with a glowing substance inside. I could feel it and see it…
I do not know what it means at this time or what I am to do with it. So I will put it away until I have further instructions or intuition about what it’s for. Did the fog give it to me? If so why?
That’s all for now. If I have free time later I will work through lessons one and two again tonight.
Are you reading my mind? I have been thinking of doing the OAA too
It’s always so weird for me every time I think of doing something magically and someone else then makes a post about the exact thing I was thinking of.
I sat facing south once again to work on lessons 1 and 2.
The breathing techniques were easier this time. Perhaps because I knew the steps and feel I had to refer to the book for the next phase. I simply let go and focus.
The fog came on its own without me even thinking of it. It just seeped in like a fog that suddenly rolls in on an October night. Like an old vampire horror film. Only I wasn’t frightened by this fog but allowed it to expand and dance in the darkness caressing me and moving around as if it was its own entity and I suppose it is.
Having my the palms of my hands facing each other the tips of my fingers touching , I once again felt the bottle in my hands. I could see more detail to it, the top seems to be carved into an open flower. It’s a brighter pink and still has a glowing substance to it. I do not know what it means but I am now certain that the fog brought it to me. I can only speculate that it will be something of use later in this working. Or perhaps it’s entirely for something else I will learn later.
I think I will work on these exercises for another day before moving on to lesson three.
@DarkestKnight , would you mind answering this question?
I’m just not exactly sure how to put it into words and my first thought was just , the feeling of accomplishment. And I know that sounds so snarky and even though it’s true it’s not the main point.
I would say that it helps boost you to godhood or at least gets the path opened leading to godhood.
For me I wanted to start over with a clean slate and work my way from something basic , beginner to mastery level. I know I can complete this book if I do not allow other things interfer. But a.d.d. Can be a pain sometimes.
You become part of a specific current of power, the 18 Flames. Each Flame is basically an initiation and as you complete them, you join the ranks of a unique magical order that exists in the higher planes.
No, you were not. Your explanation is perfectly valid and matches what EA says in the Discourses themselves. Mine was just simplified down to the most basic level.
It says to practice this exercise until you can do it for interrupted for 10 minutes. To envision a pendulum swinging , not help by anything and to watch it swing. So I set a timer for ten minutes.
Around the four minute mark, it gave a fun house effect. Where I could the pendulum swinging but I could multiples of me watching the pendulum swing.
At the six minute mark I lost focus, and had to bring it back. I would say a fairly good go for the first try.
I got a copy of this book, and reading the introduction, it’s a bit intimidating, but I’m interested in giving it a go. I’m not sure why, but it’s kind of calling to me.
I did the pendulum meditation again today. The pendulum this time appeared red , like ruby on a gold chain. Just before I started, I saw an old man with a long white beard he spoke to me, “you can do it.”
I began to focus on the swinging of the pendulum, and it staying perfectly in my vision and I followed the swinging, back and forth.
Yet, it was as if seeing two things at once. A technique I worked on teaching myself to read multiple magicians circles at once. Seeing several things happening, yet at once.
I saw the pendulum, never swaying from it. But I also saw the old man watching me as if he new secrets about me and my abilities the I have yet to fully understand. Though, he never spoke to me again I felt his encouragement. What I saw past the pendulum as if seeing the pendulum, yet seeing also an event or a moment from time was about six cloaked beings standing close to each other but forming a u shape in front of a huge stained glass window. There was a podeum type stand with a fire burning on it.
It gave the feeling of a gothic place. With dark colors of black, brown , faded yellows. There was no light coming through the stained glass window. But it was very large. Was this place a church or temple. I suppose some kind of temple.
With the pendulum swinging , and the vision playing out I was startled when my timer sounded. I had reached the 10 minute mark.
I think I will try this at least once more before moving on.
I did the 10 minute pendulum swing again this morning. This time the swinging crystal was dark, hanging from a golden chain.
Through the swinging pendulum, I could see the stained glass window again and cloaked figured standing in front of it. But this time one of them turned around looked straight at me and said, “We have been expecting you”. With this crazy grin across his face. The pendulum kept swinging back and forth and I wonder what his statement meant.
I was startled once again when my ten minutes time sounded.
I think I’ve done well with this so , I will probably move on to the next thing which is the candles. Though, I think I will be returning to this exercise because I feel the need to dig deeper.
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