I’m a “veteran” of this forum, dare I say. I have made multiple threads in which I conveyed my disappointment in life and my magical craft. I was very depressed back in those days.
But for a “strange” reason, ever since I began my magical journey, I have built up a resilience, which makes me automatically block out all the negativity that I’m receiving throughout my days. I’m a happy person. Hell, I’d say I’m generally very happy.
There’s been many instances that occurred to me a few months ago that would’ve sent me on another downwards spiral, yet it bounced off of me.
I wanted to make this thread to remind some of the newbies that magick always delivers something. Before I started magick, I was needy, obsessive, possessive, angry and spiteful.
Now, I’m much more relaxed and content with who I am. I can look in the mirror and be proud of who I am. I love myself. I am no longer obsessing over people, I’m no longer spiteful, I’m no longer needy, I’m no longer possessive.
Perhaps these are the influences from Lilith? 
Either way, you will always gain something from your journey. Failures will lead to a greater reward in the end.