That was incredibly useful, simply because it is accurate of what I have been doing. I have fought fear, the first enemy of the Man of Knowledge, and come out of the battle with Clarity. But that Clarity, is after all the Man of Knowledge’s second enemy.
That clarity gave rise to self-importance, which I have been working hard to shed, and the most dead-on part, was where you emphasized, that while I understand the concepts intellectually I have yet to truly internalize them, and apply them.
I also think my youth may be related to this, especially the part where I am not aware of Death, the Great Hunter. I’ve undergone magical operations to learn and merge with Death, I’ve learned from Her, but until I grow older, and FEEL Her truly stalking me, she remains an abstract concept. Also, the part with hormones, and how much the ape I’m inhabiting’s body influences my personality.
Some things did hit me with that ‘‘aha’’ moment, like the nature of evolution. While the mention of my destiny being as a ruler was something that raised an eyebrow, as I am very much not interested with politics, but it could have a deeper layer of meaning to it. And even if it doesn’t, it’s still something I should ponder.
You’ve also hit the whole veil thing spot-on.
So…thanks dude. Really appreciate it and good luck.