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Okay, lets see if I understand the Pentagram well enough.
The pentagram is composed of five right triangles, one apex at a top or bottom and two in the opposite direction. Inside is an right side up or upside down pentagon.
Inside the pentagon is where the finger is poked and or a symbol is constructed, such as a Kerubic astrology sign at a specific quarter, where in each quarter the same pentagram is drawn the same way as the preceding to the last one, but a different god name or divine name is vibrated while a finger or dagger point is poked through, and/or a symbol is drawn with the finger or dagger tip.
Each right triangle represents a different element. In a pentagram with the apex at the top, and two pints touching the floor, the apex is Spirit, the upper right is Water, the lower right is Fire, the lower left is Earth, and the upper left is Air.
To invoke a specific element, you start at the opposite point and draw the pentagram toward the desired element, To invoke Air for example, you would draw upper right to upper left and complete the pentagram.
The first pentagram taught to students should be invoking Spirit, but is banishing Earth/Saturn. In this pentagram, you take your left index finger with the other fingers curled in, and pointing with the finger tip, draw a straight line from lower left hip to center top, then down to lower right, then to upper left, then to upper right, then back to lower left completing the pentagram. All points should connect, and the pentagram drawn your size and projected outward with the sign of the enterer at each quarter, then a sign of silence, then the arm and finger back up. The arm and finger should always be raised, even in the sign of the Enterer, with the momentary exception of the sign of silence.
Speaking of completion, the circle must always be completed. The LRP/LBRP is started in the east, each quarter is two steps to the right, and after the final quarter in the North, two more steps should be taken to have you standing East again, where the second part is started, the conjuring of the Archangels. After the four angels are called, you state around me flames the pentagram, and within me shines the six rayed star.
Speaking of a six rayed star, the Cabalistic Cross can also be thought of as the Prayer of David (! Chron 10:11-12), or the Lords Prayer (Mt 6:13 - thou art the Kingdom, and the Power and the Glory for all time, amen).
The pentagram can be drawn in a particular color, some say only white, some say only blue. I say, and in the spirit of the middle pillar of parts of the soul or the rising on the planes, or the rite of elemental equilibriation, at each quarter I see the flaming pentagram, I see the color of the robes of the archangel, I see simply fire. However, I would rather see the elemental glyph in its primary color for that quarter, the color of the element being invoked the same at all four quarters, and a different grade sign, god name vibrated with symbol in pentagon and the colored glyph inside the self at each quarter.

Kraig/Cicero/Christopher/Bardon Exercises chapter one being done daily:
Relaxation Ritual
Tarot Contemplation Ritual
Split Hexagram Spread
Cabalistic Cross
Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram, Earth banishing with grade signs
Middle Pillar Ritual
Solar Adorations (Liber Resh Vel Helios) and Adoration to the Lord of the Universe
Attemptng Silence, and control of Thought
Psychic Exercises
Outer Wand of Double Power or Air Dagger used in every rite, except perhaps QC/LBRP/QC
Diaries Kept Daily (dream and a working)
Point-Line meditation
Silent Mind meditation
Color candle meditations

Listened to a Speech in the Silence OTO podcast on Thelemic values, now listening the Bornless Ritual. And so on, no music tonight, only education, preferably on Vehuiah.
Or at least on Shem angels and angelic grimoires and summoning/conjuring.

Arcane Grimoire: Shemhamphorash Angels 101

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Wording matters.

When the computer/site acts sluggish, dont think “piece of shit”, but rather “this is a poor performing piee of shit computer/site”. This way the universe and your subconscious know exactly what you’re referring to

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Evening/midnight adorations - Done.
These went swimmingly, correct grade signs and names and phrases done.
QC-LBRP-QC - Done.
This got me slightly dizzy yet grounded as I do it around the altar in the center.
LRH - Saturn Banishing - Done.
Feel grounded.

Where with all shall a Neophyte change his ways? By reading Gematria, Qabalah, and Energy work with Meditation.

"Until I Found The Lord" (Original)(1978) Walter Hawkins

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Back to our regularly scheduled programming …

Kaballah

Good God is Westcott/Mathers dry reading on Kaballah. I thought Fortunes Mystical Qabalah was dry, but good lord.
Esau is Edom … and Ive seen a few of these names elsewhere …
The Zohar says :–If these books of the Torah contain only the tales of, and the words of Esau, Hagar, Laban and Balaam, why are they called–The Perfect Law, The Law of Truth, The True Witness of God?–there must be a hidden meaning. “Woe be to the man who says that The Law (Torah) contains only common sayings and tales: if this were true we might even in our time compose a book of doctrine which would be more respected. No, every word has a sublime sense, and is a heavenly mystery. The Law resembles an angel: to come down on earth a spiritual angel must put on a garment to be known or understood here, so the Law must have clothed itself in a garment of words as a body for men to receive; but the wise look within the garments.”
But, where should I start? The Zohar? The Sepher books? Mathers and Westcott as well as Fortune and Case are the founders of the whole modern Kaballah craze, so I continue on.

Tarot and Gematria and Notariqon

I honestly like how Paul Foster Case, in The Invisible and True Rosicrucian Order, would write the chapters based on Gematria or Notariqon, where the keys would spell out the word.
So, playing with the major keys, spelling out words. Out of 22 keys however, there are only so many combinations, especially since the card letter can only be used once. So AB is possible as is BA, but not ABBA or ABA.
Examples:
NChSh, or MYSHCH both total to 358, as do a few other words. Messiah and the serpent? Interesting.
Shin Cheth Nun
Judgement Chariot Death
Cheth Shin Yod Mem
Chariot Judgement Hermit Hanged Man
Atoh – HAyThA – Heh Ayin Tav Aleph
Emperor Devil World Fool
AGLA — HLGA
Heh Lamed Gimel Aleph
Emperor Justice High Priestess Fool
Amen – AMN Nun Mem Aleph
Death Hanged Man Fool
QBL – Lamed Beth Qoph
Justice Magician Moon

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The Universal Tableau spread out, and thinking what would be cabalistic but also a hebrew term, whether by gematria or notariqon?
Let’s see. Boy have I become rusty in this area. I do recall one day starting out sounding letters in threes or fours, alternating letters in a forward series, like AAA to ABTh. Weather got funky quick and was too tired to make note of the word. May have to try one night or day and see what unusual weather occurred. That there is a key.
So, universal Tableau is three rows of seven cards in numerical order ascending, and the fool atop key IV.
We would then start with the Fool, Aleph, A, and go to Beth, Magician, and go down across or diagonal. Try to pick out what sounds reasonable and check it against 777 or Bill Heidricks Gematria Page.
So, several combinations of three letters starting with Aelpg left Qoph, The Moon on top of the stack, to the right is the Page of Cups on top of the stack, and just to see if water would be the case, shuffled, cut, and drew the Eight of Cups (Hod of Briah, Saturn in Pisces).
The top of Deck, the Four of Pentacles (Chesed of Assiah, Luna in Capricorn).
A Man governing earth and the seas. He sits on, stands on, holds and is crowned with pentacles and a crown and robe.
A man walks away from delicately stacked rows of cups under moonlight, the man in the moon watching him.
A Knave awaits a message from a fish in his cup.
A crawfish crawls out of a pond near two baying dogs at the man in the moon that appears as the stance of the hermits face.
LG5: 17 incorrect.
Back to Qabalah.

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GTT: 31 incorrect. Impatience and guessing.

An interesting arrangement:
Top row Courts Cups:
Page Knight Queen King
XII VII XIII XVIII I
Ace Two Three Four Five
Six Seven Eight Nine Ten
From here it is interesting to note Qaballistic Tree of Life and path associations. What stand out are a pairing of Four and Nine as well as Five and Ten, which are less direct paths or pillar spheres. Then the question is what associations do we draw feom the first and or second rows?

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Another arrangement
Top Row: Court Cards of Cups in order left to right:
Page, Knight, Queen, King.
Below this order left to right re keys:
XII. VII. XIII. XVIII. I
The third row: Ace Two Three Four Five
The fourth row: Six Seven Eight Nine Ten
Left to right or right to left are not really a point here. Cheth, Nun and Qoph are in a left to right order based on the zodiac belt.
What I do see is the top row each ranges two cards below, left and right.
Page: Mem, Cheth
The Hanged Mans enlightenment is the message passed to the Page. The Chariot is mobile thanks to the influence of the Knight, and knows and masters the tides.
Knight: Cheth, Nun
The Chariot is mobile thanks to the influence of the Knight, and knows and masters the tides. Death is mobile, and carries a banner, not a spear or cup. Neither have come to bear a message seeming positive.
Queen: Nun, Qoph
The Queen stares at her cup containing a seeming shellfish such as a crawfish or crab. She stares intently at the cup as Death stares at the pleading Hierophant. She bears a up, he bears a banner. Both have authority. The tower seen in Death is one in The Moon. The crayfish may just be the one in the Queens Cup, and her face may be the one in the moon.
King: Qoph, Beth
The King is master of all things water, and bear a Cup and Wand with an Orb. The Magician bears a Cup as one of his elemental weapons and has authority from above and within. The crayfish had authority in the water, but not on land, showing the difference between matter and spirit as pertains to water, planet and sign.
Below Mem is Ace (Kether) and Six (Tiphareth). Direct polar arrangement on a Y axis. On Pillar of Mildness.
Below Cheth is Two (Chokmah) and Seven (Netzach) - minus Chesed, direct polar arrangement on Pillar of Mercy.
Below Nun is Three (Binah) and Eight (Hod) - minus Geburah, a direct polar arrangement on Pillar of Severity.
Below Qoph is Four (Chesed) and Nine (Yesod). No direct polar arrangement, two separate pillars.
Below Beth is Five (Geburah) and Ten (Malkuth). No direct polar arrangement. Two separate Pillars.
An odd and possibly incorrect arrangement.
However, the more you look at the arrangement symbols and Qaballistic placement, the more some of it makes sense.

Atziluth as opposed to Briah
Another arrangement
Top Row: Court Cards of Cups in order left to right:
Page, Knight, Queen, King.
Below this order left to right re keys:
XX. IV. VIII. XIV. XVI
Mars was chosen as the first zodiac sign is IV, Aries, and Mars rules over Aries. III and XIX were dismissed.
The third row: Ace Two Three Four Five
The fourth row: Six Seven Eight Nine Ten
Left to right or right to left are not really a point here.
Heh, Teth and Samekh are in a left to right order based on the zodiac belt.
What I do see is the top row each ranges two cards below, left and right.
Page: Shin, Heh
The Page holds his staff, looking at the new leaves, perhaps counting them. The angel looks at the trumpet he holds and the people seeking rebirth. The Page is unconcerned as is The Emperor, both seem protected, and authority comes to both via the Knight.
Knight: Heh, Teth
Both beasts are under the control of the human, a seeming contrast of war and peace under the control of the Knight.
message seeming positive.
Queen: Teth, Samekh
The Queen and her cat are the White Queen and the Red Lion. She also oversees the transmutation of the archangels cups.
King: Samekh, Peh
The King Has the power and authority to make war and to transmute the Red stage to the White stage. He oversees Geburah and Malkuth as well as Chsed and Yesod.
Below Shin is Ace (Kether) and Six (Tiphareth). Not a direct polar arrangement on a Y axis, due to Shin instead of Tav. Otherwise on Pillar of Mildness.
Below Heh is Two (Chokmah) and Seven (Netzach) - minus Chesed, indirect polar arrangement on Pillar of Mercy. Heh does extend from Tiphareth to Chokmah.
Below Teth is Three (Binah) and Eight (Hod) - minus Geburah, indirect polar arrangement on Pillar of Severity. X-Y axis. Suggested meaning is suggestion-response.
Below Samekh is Four (Chesed) and Nine (Yesod). Indirect polar arrangement, two separate pillars.
Below Peh is Five (Geburah) and Ten (Malkuth). No direct polar arrangement. Two separate Pillars. X-Y axis. However, the casualties of war can include oppression and strife.
An odd and possibly incorrect arrangement.

Earth and air tomorrow, bedtime now.

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Sleep/Dreams:

No dreams recalled. Sleep poor.

Tarot

Yetzirah as opposed to Briah
Another arrangement
Top Row: Court Cards of Swords in order left to right:
Page, Knight, Queen, King.
Below this order left to right re keys:
0. VI. XI. XVII. II
The third row: Ace Two Three Four Five
The fourth row: Six Seven Eight Nine Ten
Left to right or right to left are not really a point here.
Zayin, Lamed and Tzaddi are in a left to right order based on the zodiac belt.
What I do see is the top row each ranges two cards below, left and right.
Page: Aleph, Zayin
Zayin is Sword, and the Fool and Page are both holding a weapon.
Knight: Zayin, Lamed
Whip and Sword, the ox goad to whip the Fool.
Queen: Lamed, Tzaddi
Whip and Fishhook, and a sword ready to behead . A meal in the making.
King: Tzaddi, Gimel
Fishhook and camel. The meal is brought to him.
Below Aleph is Ace (Kether) and Six (Tiphareth). Not a direct polar arrangement on a Y axis, due to Aleph. Otherwise on Pillar of Mildness.
Below Zayin is Two (Chokmah) and Seven (Netzach) - minus Chesed, indirect polar arrangement on Pillar of Mercy. Zayin does extend from Tiphareth to Binah.
Below Lamed is Three (Binah) and Eight (Hod) - minus Geburah, indirect polar arrangement on Pillar of Severity. X-Y axis.
Below Tzaddi is Four (Chesed) and Nine (Yesod). Indirect polar arrangement, two separate pillars.
Below Gimel is Five (Geburah) and Ten (Malkuth). No direct polar arrangement. Two separate Pillars. X-Y axis.
An odd and possibly incorrect arrangement.

Assiah as opposed to Yetzirah
Another arrangement
Top Row: Court Cards of Cups in order left to right:
Page, Knight, Queen, King.
Below this order left to right re keys:
XXI (or empty). V. IX. XV. XXI (or empty)
XXI is duplicated since it is Saturn and Earth.
The third row: Ace Two Three Four Five
The fourth row: Six Seven Eight Nine Ten
Left to right or right to left are not really a point here.
Vav, Yod and Ayin are in a left to right order based on the zodiac belt.
What I do see is the top row each ranges two cards below, left and right.
Page: Tav, Vav. The nail holds the cross together.
Knight: Vav, Yod
Two Magus, Vav extends from Chokmah to Chesed. Yod extends from Chesed to Tiphareth. Yod the hand holds the pentacle.
Queen: Yod, Ayin. Hand and eye, she holds and eyes the pentacle as if it were a baby.
King: Ayin, Tav
Two harsh cards. Eye and Cross. He maintains his sovereignty but looks to the future.
Below Tav is Ace (Kether) and Six (Tiphareth). Direct polar arrangement on a Y axis, due to Tav. Pillar of Mildness.
Below Vav is Two (Chokmah) and Seven (Netzach) - direct polar arrangement on Pillar of Mercy. .
Below Yod is Three (Binah) and Eight (Hod) - minus Geburah, indirect polar arrangement on Pillar of Severity. X-Y axis.
Below Ayin is Four (Chesed) and Nine (Yesod). Indirect polar arrangement, two separate pillars.
Below Tav is Five (Geburah) and Ten (Malkuth). No direct polar arrangement. Two separate Pillars. X-Y axis. Tav, Saturn sees over wealth and poverty.
An odd and possibly incorrect arrangement.

Card for the Day/Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
VII The Chariot - Cancer - Fence - 8.
Vulnerable yet protected. At peace yet ready for war. Mobile yet stationary. Guided by the Moon.

Adorations

Liber Resh Vel Helios morning adoration done.
Lord of the Universe adoration done

Rituals

Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram, Fire invoking done.
Qabalistic Cross done.

Psychic Exercises:

Less then Greater than Five: 20 incorrect. Impatience.
Guess the Trump: 33 incorrect, not following glyph.method. impatience.

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Psychic Exercises:

Less then Greater than Five: 20 incorrect. Impatience.
Guess the Trump: 33 incorrect, not following glyph.method. impatience.

Tarot

Split Hexagram Spread
“How can I get better at psychic divination?”
Greater Spiritual Influence
III The Empress Venus Binah-Chokmah
Fruitfulness, action, creativity.
Lesser Spiritual Influence
XV The Devil Capricorn Hod-Tiphareth
Something must happen, but in the end for good.
Spiritual Advice
XVII The Star Aquarius Yesod-Netzach
Hope and a bright future.
Unconscious Desires
IV The Emperor Aries Tiphareth-Chokmah
Power, effectiveness, reason.
Conscious Desires
XVI The Tower Mars Hod-Netzach
Ruin, catastrophe, disruption.
Practical Advice
XX Shin Elemental Fire Malkuth-Hod
Renewal, rebirth.
Final Outcome
XIII Death Scorpio Netzach-Tiphareth.
An evolutionary change or transformation.
Top of Deck - XII Hanged Man Water Hod-Geburah

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Adorations

Afternoon adoration done.
.10th Sephiroth - Malkuth - YouTube

To master the shells first or later, that is the question.
Life Restructuring:

Silencing gossips
Breaking any and all curses
Becoming invisible
Working to pay expenses
Keeping some savings
Retaining knowledge
Getting an education and degree
Rebuilding and retaining competency
Rebuilding and retaining dignities
Building new skills of an intellectual nature
Rebuilding or building new or existing enterprises
Destroying all vices and addictions
Becoming stronger physically and emotionally
Healing Short and long term
Legal Aid/Finaicial Aid Long term
Who can help with these? 144 folks.

Life Restructuring:

Silencing gossips
Breaking any and all curses
Becoming invisible
Working to pay expenses
Keeping some savings
Retaining knowledge
Getting an education and degree
Rebuilding and retaining competency
Rebuilding and retaining dignities
Building new skills of an intellectual nature
Rebuilding or building new or existing enterprises
Destroying all vices and addictions
Becoming stronger physically and emotionally
Healing Short and long term
Legal Aid/Finaicial Aid Long term
Who can help with these? 144 folks.

Healing, Legal/Financial Aid, Silencing Gossips, Working to pay expenses, these come first.
" Table 2- Names of God based upon Length, listed with inherent powers.

Name	Power
4 Letter Name of God	Power to Bless, curse, or kill.
12 Letter Name of God	Power to Banish Depression
22 Letter Name of God	Power of Endearment
23 Letter Name of God	Power of Reward
26 Letter Name of God	Power of Blessing
33 Letter Name of God	Power to Open the Gates of Prayer
42 Letter Name of God	Power of Creation
72 Letter Name of God	Power of Redemption
216 Letter Name of God	Power of Revival of the Dead

Our own discussion will focus upon the 216 letter9 Name which is subdivided into 72 three- letter names, each triad being the name of an Angel of God. This “divided name” of God is called the Shemhamphorash10."

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Healing, Legal/Financial Aid, Silencing Gossips, Working to pay expenses, these come first.

Name	Power
4 Letter Name of God	Power to Bless, curse, or kill.
12 Letter Name of God	Power to Banish Depression
22 Letter Name of God	Power of Endearment
23 Letter Name of God	Power of Reward
26 Letter Name of God	Power of Blessing
33 Letter Name of God	Power to Open the Gates of Prayer
42 Letter Name of God	Power of Creation
72 Letter Name of God	Power of Redemption
216 Letter Name of God	Power of Revival of the Dead

Angel Name	Influences
1. Vehuaiah	Subtle spirit. Endowed with great wisdom, enthusiastic for science and the arts, capable of undertaking and accomplishing the most difficult things.
2. Jeliel	To quell popular uprisings. To obtain victory over those who attack unjustly. Sprightly spirit, agreeable and courteous manners, passionate for sex.
3. Sitael	Against adversities. Protects against weapons and wild beasts. Loves truth, will keep his word, will oblige those in need of his services.
4. Elemiah	Against mental troubles and for the identification of traitors. Governs voyages, sea travels. Industrious, successful, keen for travel.
5. Mahasiah	To live in peace with everyone. Governs high science, occult philosophy, theology, and the liberal arts. Learns easily, keen for honest pleasures.
6. Lelahel	To acquire knowledge and cure disease. Governs love, renown, science, arts and fortune. Features (include) ambition, fame.
7. Achaiah	Governs patience, secrets of nature. Loves learning, proud to accomplish the most difficult tasks.
8. Cahetel	To obtain the benediction of God and to drive away evil spirits. Governs agricultural production. Inspires man to rise towards God.
9. Aziel	Mercy of God, friendship and favor of the great, execution of a promise made (sic). Governs good faith and reconciliation. Sincere in promises, will easily extend pardon.
10. Aladiah	Good for those guilty of hidden crimes and fearing discovery. Governs rage and pestilence, cure of disease. Good health, successful in his undertakings.
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11. Lauviah	Against lightning and for the obtainment (sic) of victory. Governs renown. Great personage, learned, celebrated for personal talents.
12. Hahaiah	Against adversity. Governs dreams. Mysteries hidden from mortals. Gentle, witty, discreet manners.
13. Iezalel	Governs friendship, reconciliation, conjugal fidelity. Learns easily. Adroit.
14. Mebahel	Against those who seek to usurp the fortunes of others. Governs justice, truth, liberty. Delivers the oppressed and protects prisoners. Loves jurisprudence, affinity for law courts.
15. Hariel	Against the impious. Governs sciences and arts. Religious sentiments, morally pure.
16. Hakamiah	Against traitors and for deliverance from those who seek to oppress us. Governs crowned heads, great captains. Gives victory. Frank, loyal, brave character, sensitive to points of honor, an affinity for Venus.
17. Lauviah	To be invoked while fasting. Against mental anguish, sadness. Governs high sciences, marvelous discoveries. Gives revelations in dreams. Loves music, poetry, literature and philosophy.
18. Caliel	To obtain prompt aid. Makes truth known in law suits, causes innocence to triumph. Just, honest, loves truth, judiciary.
19. Leuviah	To be invoked while facing South. To obtain the grace of God. Governs memory, human intelligence. Amiable, lively, modest, bearing of adversity with resignation.
20. Pahaliah	Against enemies of religion, for the conversion of nations to Christianity (!). Governs religion, theology, morality, chastity, purity. Ecclesiastical vocation.
21. Nelebael	Against calumniators and spells and for the destruction of evil spirits. Governs astronomy, mathematics, geography and all abstract sciences. Loves poetry, literature, avid for study.
22. Ieiael	Governs fortune, renown, diplomacy, commerce, influence on voyages, discoveries, protection against storms and shipwreck. Loves business, industriousness, liberal and philanthropic ideas.
23. Melahel	Against weapons and for safety in travel. Governs water, produce of the earth, and especially plants necessary for the cure of disease. Courageous, accomplishes honorable actions.
24. Hahuiah	To obtain the grace and mercy of God. Governs exiles, fugitives, defaulters. Protects against harmful animals. Preserves from thieves and assassins. Loves truth, the exact sciences, sincere in word and deed.
25. NithHaiah	For the acquisition of wisdom and the discovery of the truth of hidden mysteries. Governs occult sciences. Gives revelations in dreams, particularly to those born on the day over which he presides. . Influences those who practice the magic of the sages.
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26. Haaiah	For the winning of a law suit. Protects those who search after truth. Influences politics, diplomats, secret expeditions and agents.
27. Jerathel	To confound wrong-doers and liars and for deliverance from one’s enemies. Governs propagation of light, civilization. Love, peace, justice, science and arts; special affinity for literature.
28. Seeiah	Against infirmities and thunder, protects against fire, the ruin of buildings, falls and illnesses. Governs health, simplicity. Has much judgment.
29. Reiiel	Against the impious and enemies of religion; for deliverance from all enemies both visible and invisible. Virtue and zeal for the propagation of truth, will do his utmost to destroy impiety.
30. Ornael	Against sorrow, despair and for the acquisition of patience. Governs animal kingdom,watches over the generation of beings. Chemists, doctors, surgeons. Affinity for anatomy and medicine.
31. Lecabel	For the acquisition of knowledge. Governs vegetation and agriculture. Loves astronomy, mathematics and geometry.
32. Vasariah	Against those who attack us in court. Governs justice. Good memory, articulate.
33. Iehuiah	For the identification of traitors.
34. Lehahiah	Against anger. Known for his talents and acts, the confidence and fervor of his prayers.
35. Chevakiah	To regain the favor of those one has offended. Governs testaments, successions and all private financial agreements. Loves to live in peace with everyone. Loves rewarding the loyalty of those in his service.
36. Menadel	To retain one’s employment and to preserve one’s means of livelihood. Against calumny and for the deliverance of prisoners.
37. Aniel	To obtain victory and stop the siege of a city. Governs sciences and arts. Reveals the secrets of nature, inspires philosophers, sages. Distinguished savant.
38. Haamiah	For the acquisition of all the treasures of heaven and earth. Against fraud, weapons, wild beasts and infernal spirits. Governs all that relates to God.
39. Rehael	For the healing of the sick. Governs health and longevity. Influences paternal and filial affection.
40. Ieiazel	For the deliverance of prisoners, for consolation, for deliverance from one’s enemies. Governs printing and books. Men of letters and artists.
41. Hahahel	Against the impious, slanderers. Governs Christianity. Greatness of soul, energy. Consecrated to the service of God.
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42. Mikael	For safety in travel. For the discovery of conspiracies. Concerned with political affairs, diplomatic.
43. Veuahiah	For the destruction of the enemy and deliverance from bondage. Love glory and the military.
44. Ielahiah	Success of a useful undertaking. Protection against magistrates. Trials. Protects against armies, gives victory. Fond of travel and learning. All his undertakings are crowned with success; distinguished for military capabilities and courage.
45. Sealiah	To confound the wicked and the proud, to exalt the humiliated and the fallen. Governs vegetation. Loves learning, much aptitude.
46. Ariel	To procure revelations. To thank God for the good he sends us. Discovers hidden treasure, reveals the greatest secrets of nature; causes the object of one’s desire to be seen in dreams. Strong subtle mind, new and sublime thoughts, discreet, circumspect.
47. Asaliah	For the praising of God and the growing towards him when he enlightens us. Governs justice, makes the truth known in legal proceedings. Agreeable character, avid for the acquisition of secret knowledge.
48. Michael	For the preservation of peace and the union of man and wife. Protects those who address themselves to him, gives premonitions and secret inspirations. Governs generation of beings. Avid for love, fond of walks and pleasures in general.
49. Vehuel	Sorrow, contrariness. For the exaltation of oneself for the benediction and glory of God. Sensitive and generous soul. Literature, jurisprudence, diplomacy.
50. Daniel	To obtain the mercy of God and consolation. Governs justice, lawyers, solicitors. Furnishes conclusions to those who hesitate. Industrious and active in business, loves literature and is distinguished for eloquence.
51. Hahasiah	For the elevation of the soul and the discovery of the mysteries of wisdom. Governs chemistry and physics. Reveals the secret of the Philosopher’s Stone and universal medicine. Loves abstract science. Devoted to the discovery of the properties of animals, plants and minerals. Distinguished in medicine.
52. Imamiah	Destroys the power of enemies and humbles them. Governs voyages in general, protects prisoners who turn to him and gives them the means of obtaining their freedom. Forceful, vigorous temperament, bears adversity with patience and courage. Fond of work.
53. Nanael	Governs the high sciences. Melancholy humor, avoids rest, meditation, well-versed in the abstract sciences.
54. Nithael	To obtain the mercy of God and live long. Emperor, king, and prince. Renowned for writings and eloquence, of great reputation among the learned.
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55. Mabaiah	Beneficial for obtaining consolation and compensations. Governs morality and religion. Distinguished by good deeds and piety.
56. Poiel	For the fulfillment of one’s request. Governs renown, fortune and philosophy. Well esteemed by everyone for his modesty and agreeable humor.
57. Nemmamiah	For general prosperity and the deliverance of prisoners. Governs great captains. Drawn to the military; distinguished for activity and the courageous bearing of fatigue.
58. Ieialel	Protects against sorrow and care and heals the sick, especially afflictions of the eyes. Influences iron and those in commerce. Brave, frank, affinity for Venus.
59. Harahel	Against the sterility of women and to make children obedient to their parents. Governs treasure and banks. Printing, books. Love of learning, successful in business, money.
60. Mizrael	For the cure of mental illness and deliverance from those who persecute us. Virtuous, longevity.
61. Umabel	To obtain the friendship of a given person. Fond of travel and honest pleasures; sensitive heart.
62. Iah-hel	For the acquisition of wisdom. Governs philosophers, illuminati. Loves tranquility and solitude, modest, virtuous.
63. Anianuel	For the conversion of nations to Christianity. Protects against accidents, heals the sick. Governs commerce, banking. Subtle and ingenious, industrious and active.
64. Mehiel	Against adversities. Protects against rabies and wild beasts. Governs savants, professors, orators and others. Distinguished in literature.
65. Damabiah	Against magic spells and for the obtainment of wisdom and the undertaking of successful ventures. Governs seas, rivers, springs, sailors. Sailor; amasses a considerable fortune.
66. Manakel	For the appeasement of the anger of God and for the healing of epilepsy. Governs vegetation, aquatic animals. Influences dreams. Gentleness of character.
67. Itaiel	To obtain consolation in adversity and for the acquisition of wisdom. Influences occult science. Makes the truth known to those who call on him in their work. Enlightened requirements of the spirit of God. Fond of solitude, distinguished in higher sciences.
68. Chabuiah	For the preservation of health and the healing of the sick. Governs agriculture and fecundity. Fond of the countryside, hunting, gardens and all that is related to agriculture.
69. Rochel	To find lost or stolen objects and discover the person responsible. Distinguished in the judiciary, morals and customs of all peoples.
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70. Iabamiah	Governs the generation of beings and phenomena of nature. Protects those who wish to progress spiritually. Distinguished by genius; one of the great lights of philosophy.
71. Haiel	To confound the wicked and for deliverance from those who seek to oppress us (sic).Protects those who call upon him. Influences fire. Brave.
72. Mumiah	A divine talisman should be prepared under favorable influences with the name of the spirit on the reverse side. Protects in mysterious operations, brings success in all things. Governs chemistry, physics and medicine. Influences health and longevity.

[Nightside]

Have broken them up into categories, such as
Healing
Protection
Education
Self Development
Adversity
Finance
Legal

So, hit up one from each category, timing to be determined. Plan on first evoking Vehuiah ( #1 )
Vahuiah is a miracle maker and a self development whiz according to two sources.

[Nightside]

After browsing through or reading Initiation into Hermetics, Kaballah Magic and the Great Work of Self Transformation, and the Self Iontiation into the Golden Dawn Tradition, I am and have been doing Neophyte level work for months, So time to step up to Zelator material. Of course Ie not been initiated, just doing the Kniledge Lectures and Ritual Work for the grade.
Introspection still working on.

Adorations done except for Midnight LRVH
Middle Pillar done
TCR (pm) 0 The Fool done
Fourford breathing done
Relaxation Ritual done
QC/LRP/QC done
Extrasensory exercises done
Body Awareness done
Meditation on point done
Split Hexagram Spread done

[Nightside]

Cannot sleep and its pissing me off.
Might as well pout out my thought. Fuck competition. What should I compete with some greaser who only wants another trophy? Fuck your trophy champ. Enter baneful magic.
“some greaser” – some greasy weasel who played dirty pool to shove me out of my rightful field.
Off topic: Ad – “The Power of Bee Venom”. Hmm.

Time to review my goals, and those which can be done mostly mundanely.

Time to introspect as well.

Between the four books (Kaballah Magic and the Great Work of Self Transformation, Self Initiation into the Golden Dawn Tradition, Modern Magick and Initation int Hermetics), I now have 32 exercises to do daily. It makes me wonder if any of the previous exercises drop off.
This is for Zelator level work.

[Nightside]

Less than Greater than Five: Used pendulum. 20 incorrect.
Guess the Trump: Too many failures, maybe two correct. No sensation or awareness from thinking or visualizing elemental glyphs.
MCM: 34 incorrect. Still above 50%
Still honest.

Stick to Black Magic, or White Magic?
Celtic Cross
Significator - Eight of Wands
Motion through the immovable. Strength in opposition. Delay, suspension, adjournment.
Covers - Eight of Pentacles
Work, employment, commission, craftsmanship, skill in craft and business.
Crosses - Four of Wands
Country life, repose, concord, harmony, prosperity, peace, and perfected work of those.
Crowns - Queen of Cups
Loving intelligence, gift of vision, success, happiness, pleasure, wisdom, virtue.
Beneath - XIV Temperance
Economy, moderation, frugality, management, accommodation.
Behind - Nine of Pentacles
Prudence, safety, success, accomplishment, certitude, discernment.
Before - Two of Swords
Confomity, equipoise, courage, friendship, affection, state of arms, intimacy.
Querent - Thee of Cups
Conclusion of any matter, plenty, perfection, merriment, happiness, victory, fulfillment, solace, healing.
Environment - Five of Wands
Imitation, competition, struggle and search for fame and fortune, gold, gain, opulence.
Hopes and Fears - X Wheel of Fortune
Destiny, fortune, luck, success, felicity.
Final Outcome - King of Cups
Man of business, law or divinity, responsibility, equity, arts and sciences, creative intelligence.
ToD: 6 of Wands, BoD Ace of Wands

XIV: Self-possession; knowledge that allows one to consciously im- prove/evolve and use natural abilities (or ‘gifts’) - such as sexual cha- risma - to the advantage of personal Destiny and Wyrd, and to confront and resolve those qualities within character which are detrimental. Self- honesty. In early stages of development, such an individual causes un- foreseen disruption and resentment amongst others. Beginnings of that which is re-presented by atu III.
Venus Sphere
X: That which is beyond personal Destiny. That which causes expression of itself via the implementation or provocation of acts which in their design achieve long term aims beyond the causal death of an individual; chang- ing aspects of a society by significant creations and thus changing a whole race of people - fulfilling the destiny or Wyrd of the ethos of a civilisation. Acts that inaugurate a new Aeon. The causal nature that is dictated by the essence of things – ‘fate’ etc.
Saturn Sphere.
According to !!! Sinister Tarot

This reading sadly denies mention of going to either side.

[Nightside]

Sat Feb 5, 2022
Early AM (3:45)
Besides the RHP reading list, I also have a few LHP: OAA, Ordo nine angels docs, Qabalah Qlippoth and Goetic Magic, Beginning Luciferian Magick. It seems to me that the major difference between the RHP and the LHP is that the RHP makes you work through arts and crafts and piecemeal lessons, while the LHP throws you directly into the work. Not saying the RHP has no merit, it truly does have many merits. However, it makes you study for four years instead of teaching practical magic right from the start. Is the LHP different, maybe maybe not. Maybe the LHP is the right path for me, I have become cold and numb, I have become loveless.

Moon Phase

Waxing moon in Aries

Transits

Sun 16°30’ Aqu

Moon 9°45’ Ari

Mercury 24°27’ Cap st

Venus 12°01’ Cap

Mars 8°37’ Cap

Jupiter 8°13’ Pis

Saturn 16°00’ Aqu

Uranus 10°57’ Tau

Neptune 21°34’ Pis

Pluto 27°05’ Cap

Node (M) 27°39’ Tau R

Node (T) 28°01’ Tau R

Lilith (M) 22°23’ Gem

Chiron 9°26’ Ari

Weather

Cold windy and snowing.

Mood

Mood Low Dep High Anx High

Sleep/Dreams

No sleep, no dreams

Physical Notes:

Out of marijuana, and at crossroads of shit jobs and whether or not to quit smoking it since I am employed in shit jobs that could care less.

Mental Notes:

Missed midnight adoration, perhaps that is why I am up.

Adorations

Midnight adoration … done

Rituals

QC/LRP … done
LRH/QC … done
Middle Pillar … done

Tarot

Card for the day/Tar ot Contemplation Ritual … II The High Priestess

[Nightside]

Adorations

Morning adorations done.

Goals

While looking through goals of time past, and how many unfulfilled, I wonder why? What small point B between C and A is unnoticed or absent? Have I put in 220% effort before evoking?
I cam across B.O.T.A. Lesson One, where it talks about magical goals and how to set and state them. I know everyone wants to petition and evoke, but sometimes we need to put the effort in and then have magick help us with the rest, if petitions and evocations be the key, then so be it, all effort, all work was put in.
So, figure out all the details and use the details first in workings, then layer everything else to lead to results of desired aims.

My Lack of a Life with the Spirits

It is a sad feeling seeing all this miraculous collection of spirit successes, yet I have none because of insecurity, save for a few Novenas and a couple petitions. But I also feel at the same time, I should be doing it all myself and asking for a reliable call sign with reliable outcomes; as well as being very specific and detailed in requests, be they innovations, prayers, evocations, petitions, etc. Only way to reap rewards is to put in the work. However, square one is still here, no Clairs. So thats a huge drawback to me. Ditto on verifications from others after a good month of workings (i.e. after this petition for Vehuiah, I will have to decide on whether or not I get alll of the work done myself).
Criminal Justice, Python and Qabalah … a good combination for any student.

[Nightside]

Okie dokie. Slow day on the forum, and few chatting with me, so I guess I will fuck off and go study Python and Qabalah. That after coming back from th store or before going to the store, haven’t decided. I suppose the earlier the better.
Did not know that there are two Mystical Qabalah, one by Frater Achad and the other by Dion Fortune.

[Nightside]

Errands

Walked to store and got check cashed, got a quarter and groceries.

Adorations

Afternoon adoration done.

Introspection/Self Inventory

Working.

Magick

Studying.

Qabalah

Studying.

Criminal Justice

Studying.

Anthropology

Studying.

Python

Studying.

[Nightside]

Qabalah … let me see if I understand it.

Once upon a time, the potter set his pots on a tree and filled each one with light, and all was perfect, except some pots had cracks in them, burst, and fell. To this were the ones that fell called evil and shells, particularly shells of the dead.
The remaining ones on the tree were ten, and had a unique arrangement, as the tree: At the top is a circle ir sphere called Kether, meaning “Crown” or “The Crown”, also “First Whirlings”. It is the closest to God that we have so far. Each sphere has its own tree, so it can get fractal in either direction. Also, each path on the tree has a Hebrew letter, from the Alphabet Story, each letter has a meaning and its own intelligence and numeric value.
There used to be one called Daath, but no longer exists.
We now have two, so instead of a diamond we have a triangle due to Daath. Kether is Saturn to some, Urnus to most, and Neptune to. few, as Daath is Pluto.
On the right we have Chokmah, seat of the Stars, with the meaning “Understanding”.
On the left we have Binah, seat of Saturn (to most), with the meaning “Wisdom”
(Daath would have been Knowledge with its angel Raziel)
Below this we have another triangle arrangement in the reverse direction.
On the right we have Gedulah, or Chesed, which means Mercy, and assigned to Jupiter.
On the left we have Geburah, which means Strength or Fear, and assigned to Mars.
Below this we have a sphere named Tiphareth, which means Beauty, and assigned to Sol.
On the right we have Netzach, which means Victory, and assigned to Venus.
On the left we have Hod, which means Splendor, and assigned to Mercury.
Below this we have Yesod, which means Foundation, and assigned to Luna.
Below the we have Malkuth, which means Kingdom, and assigned to the Cosmic Elements…
Ten spheres total.
The nightside of the tree has its own forms and forces within 11 spheres.
This nightside is called the Qlippoth, or Kingdom of Shells.
So, Hebrew letters: 22
Sephiroth: 10
Qlipha: 11
With Daath, this means one is missing, is it lost, or destroyed?
Also there are four worlds, Atziluth Fire Archetypes Wands, Briah Water Force Cups, Yetzirah Air Thought Swords, Assiah Earth Form Pentacles. In each world we have a magical process, starting in Atziluth and filtering through the others to get to Assiah.