Don’t twist my words around. I’ve looked at your other posts and clearly you like arguing with others over what’s “right” and “wrong”. I don’t play games with people.
Depression is a very serious issue with me. Every day, I look in the mirror and the bad voice likes to say, “Wow! Aren’t you quite the fatty?” It’s called me worse. Every time I make a mistake, I cry uncontrollably and end up biting myself in anger over it. I’ve even tried to kill myself! I’ve had depression for YEARS. YEARS. And you have the nerve to imply depression is nothing?
What is wrong with you?
I’m trying my hardest not to cuss you out, because I want to be civil. But you’re making it very difficult for me to do that. Again, stop commenting. I don’t want to hear you anymore.
This is a balanced look at the downsides of spirit relationships:
IMO your best bet is to get an alliance with a known and powerful spirit, who will mentor you and also assist you to find a great guy and have kids, material success, and all the earthly joys, while also still having a spiritual partner for magick etc.
I need lots of things apparently, lol. Definitely a makeover. Hm…turn depression into a strength…I have zero idea on how to do that, but I can look up a way and try!
What I have is Major Depression, so no. But the biting part is abnormal. I don’t bite till it bleeds, just enough for it to hurt. I’m sorry for exploding a bit, I just hate debating in general. I didn’t want to display my disorder like that, but it’s fine.
It’s just…complicated to explain. I do want to love, it’s just that I can’t love myself so easily.
Ishtar/Astaroth, Lillith, Hecate, these are some Goddesses I think could help you. Draw up one of their sigils. Focus on it and imagine you are projecting your internal voice to them. Say their name, and ask for them to give you strength/help love yourself/whatever it is. Repeat it until you feel better. As long as you are trying your best to deal with your depression, they can help you. If you want you can ask Lillith for a spirit partner although a ritual would work better. Then again asking her ahead of time could help amplify your intent in ritual.
There are downsides to such relationships…it can be lonely and its a very different experience. But you seem sincere, in one way or another I think Lillith and the other Demons will be more than willing to help. Just work on yourself to the best of your ability.
If you like, you can make a small sigil to take with you. If you have a depressive episode, you can pull it out and ask for help being strong enough to get through it. Just repeat it and focus on it until you feel better.
In general, Mantras can be very helpful. They give you something to focus on so you don’t drown in your negative emotions. You’ll still feel them, but focusing on them only amplifies those emotions. Its good to keep yourself busy too. When I feel depressed I get lathargic and just want to lay around, but when I snap out of it and focus on a hobby I feel way better than just letting my negative emotions take over.
