The Track: https://www.warpmymind.com/index.php?gadget=HFiles&action=GetFile&file_id=9247
You ask how I can stay focused through the arousal, well, I guess in my system, the arousal IS the spiritual power, so flooding with it is a good thing. A lot of my magick is sex-based and/or focused on sexual matters (not all, but most).
Yes, this is a way to explore those “darker” and less accepted things in our minds and to express our fetish sides in a more concerted way. I agree with that, although I realize that “darker” and “lighter,” etc. as adjectives are somewhat meaningless from a Luciferian perspectice. These practice are just what they are, no more no less. We can judge them darker or lighter or more moral or more perverted, etc. any number of ways.
I consider myself a Theistic Luciferian. I tend to keep my invocations into my own body but yes, I try to live my faith and invoke Marbas and my other patrons wherever I am whenever I want. I think some of the ritual practices can be artificial (beneficial to create mindspace, but ultimately, artificial). The demons do what they want and can manifest wherever they choose, however they choose.
For instance, I invoke Marbas at my gym on a daily basis and ask for his knowledge and art when it comes to human physiology to enhance my gains and make certain I don’t injure myself. That’s just one way I seek to “live” my faith.
“Ordeals” was just a word I’m using to refer to any number of ways a BDSM session can go can cause pain, discomfort, intense bliss, etc. Usually there’s an aspect of a sub/slave enduring an ordeal from as Dom/Master for their pleasure. That’s what I was referring to.