Hi, I am in a predicament, and would like some help, and guidance please.
I have always valued individuality, and individualism above all else for my whole entire life, and I have always believed that we were our own separate people, AKA our own individual souls, and that I am me, and you are you, but now when reading the New Age belief system, and all of the things that are being posted here among other things AKA ideas about unity, connectedness, oneness, and all of that stuff etc, now I’m not so sure anymore.
We can’t all be individual, and all be one, and the same being at the same exact time. That means it’s either one, or the other. One is the real reality while the other is an illusion. Take love for another person, and having sex with them for example. At one time I would have thought that I was having sex with someone who was real AKA someone who existed outside of myself, and was their own individual soul, but now I can’t enjoy it anymore because now I have to think of the fact that they’re another time instance of me, and so I’m technically having sex with myself? And then if I have kids with said person, I’m also the kids as well?
Now I know that we need love for ourselves, but I always thought the key to love was having love both for yourself, and for someone other than yourself, aka outside of yourself, as in love both internal, and external, but according to the New Age spiritualists, no one actually exists outside of myself, but rather they all exist within me, because I am all of them at once, which of course means that all the people I see are just other versions, and incarnations of myself, my true self, GOD!
So there would be almost no point in making friends then because they are all me anyway, when I originally had thought that we were all our own separate existences. That’s been really depressing to me when according to others, it should be the most beautiful thing that I have ever heard, and that it should fill me with bliss, but it doesn’t. So I almost feel as if I’m the crazy one here, and that something just isn’t computing for me that it should be, that it is for everybody else.
So is it just me, and I’m the problem here as in there’s just something about the whole New Age concept of Oneness that I am not getting, and grasping that I should be? Because that seems to be what is constantly being told to me, as I’m told day in, and day out that it’s just my so called feeble human intellect which is refusing to understand, and that I am being held captive by my Ego which is apparently my enemy, and that our Egos are actually known as The Devil Inside which is our false identity that we associate with at birth. So we’re supposedly supposed to permanently destroy our egos, which will erase us of everything that makes me, ME so that I can go into a blank slate, and then allow myself to be filled, and replaced by the higher up version of myself.
So if I decide to still believe in individuality, and individualism, and that we are all our own separate beings rather than all being one, and the same, does that make me a closed minded fool? Because that is what has been constantly being said not only to me, but countless others as well who won’t abandon their old ways to replace them with what is now considered the one, and only real truth.
I’ve been told countless times that all beliefs, and paths are lies, and invented by ignorant humans. The reason why they believe that New Age beliefs is the only exception to that however is because they claim they did not come up with the system from their own minds, but rather had them sent to them through a natural DMT plant known as AyaHuasca, which they claim immediately opens up your mind to the true nature of reality, and the ultimate truth, and automatically discards everything else.
They also claim that every single religioun, path, and belief all originated from this one plant, but they all got horribly corrupted by the humans who took over them, who did not have the guidance, or truth from the Sacred Plant, and this is the modern form of all of them now that we see today.
I mean this is obviously getting ridiculous at this point, and I’m almost embarrassed to even make this post because this is the most retarded thing in the world that could possibly happen to someone to impede on their ability to live their day to day life, and it’s happening to me. I mean we have real world problems such as starvation, murder, rape, violence, terrorism, etc, and I’m over here going down a rabbit hole into madness over stupid shit like this! To me, this doesn’t seem to far off from a conspiracy theory known as Solipsism which is another thing that is driving me batty! I’m almost positive that everyone is laughing at me at this point.