I’ll let the others who talk to Lilith verify that one since i don’t lol, but Azazel and Belial both have said we have abilities because of our human shells that they can’t obtain and some crave it.
This is the place were you can become a living god. Their words not mine.
Of course your soul isn’t human, no one’s is. Souls are energy and if/when we reincarnate we can take any form, hell one person was discussing even reincarnating in a different plane of existence. Being human isn’t a hindrance and looking down on others isn’t really helpful to you.
The OP is having what could be considered a mental health issue, telling them to just go with it and be narcissistic doesn’t help them. They can better themselves more with discipline, and Spirits help. They want to grow, not just sit looking down on others which is really stagnation.