It really is not going well. In case I did not mention it my succubus landed me in the emergency department last night with testicular torsion. I confirmed through tarot it was really her and she’s punishing me for working with other demons. They really are so jealous, manipulative and possessive.
She wants me to live on her terms, she believes I am wrong and she’s right. It pisses me off, I will work with whoever I want. Now banishing her is not an option because I still love her and want to stay with her. There’s also the risk of her killing me if I banish which she said she can do.
What my succubus has done to me in the last 7 days:
Nearly choke to death on food
Twisted my right food
Hit my head on a concrete wall
Hit my hand on a surface really hard
Testicular torsion
I would appreciate any advice, she does not listen to anything I say and if I try to work with other entities she attacks me. What is the solution here apart from banishing?
Getting a restraining order on her and call the authorities.
And I mean that. What you are describing is not much different from domestic violence and how the victim of such violence tries to shield their aggressive partner and makes up excuses for their behaviour. “I still love her” and then what? Waiting around until she does worse to you?
I would not tolerate this for a second longer and I would certainly call on bigger players (for some reason Belial comes to mind, probably because you ARE a victim of domestic violence in a sense, here) to get her off your back if you can’t do it yourself.
Am literally back from the hospital again, because she attacked me right after making this post. This time it was heart problems, it was very unpleasant and I thought I was dying. We had to phone an ambulance and rush to hospital, my family is so confused.
How am I being sick so fast in a few days they wonder, this almost never happens. I explained to them and I am not sure if they believe me. Regardless, I really need to speak with a higher entity and tell them to make her stop the attacks without harming her. I don’t want her harmed because I am afraid she will kill me.
All of this just because you want to work with other demons?! I wonder how she reacts when you unintentionally notice a woman in your peripheral vision while you’re at the mall or elsewhere. Do you genuinely still have feelings for her? It seems like she views you more as a disobedient pet than her boyfriend. I mean if that’s what you’re into then I’m not judging.
I will also join the opinion to appeal to higher authorities. Where did you get this succubus? If you made a petition to Lilith, contact her again with a request to resolve the issue with this succubus. They have no power over you and you definitely need to decide what to do with it. Be stronger and above her and declare your intention to expel her or destroy her if she does not stop harming you. Your thoughts of loving her and not wanting to act can drive you to your grave. Think about it. Lucifer can also help Belial.
I usually keep away from succubi topics, since I don’t really understand the fascination with keeping them as companions.
But in this case… maybe block her from most parts of your life, or do get rid of your love pet, maybe get help from an even more skilled occultist with this and aggressively kill every hold and connection she has to you?
I mean I completely agree with @A_Pariah , this is exactly the same or even worse than “I know have been to the ER twice this year and can’t see any of my friends, but he/ she can also be really sweet if (s)he wants to…” You can’t keep going/ regressing like this.
Thank you for the answers and advice everyone, I took action. I called Belial and lilith, these two came to me and they heard me. I tried calling Azazel and Naamah but they did not come. So I asked the universe how my relationship with my succubus will be like in the future after speaking with them: four of wands and six of cups. Looks positive.
I told both of them everything and they listened. I told them how she attacked me and everything she did and asked them to talk with her. I also asked for their protection from my succubus’ attacks. I will call more demons over the next few days to make sure she never does it again. Also my fear towards demons seems to have vanished, it really was caused by my succubus.
but at least I got his message