(Going to be a bit long, but just trying to give as much info as possible. I’m not lying, or bullshitting, or attention seeking.)
I didn’t really know where else to go with this, I was basically drawn here so I hope to get some feedback. I’d really like to know what it is that I’m experiencing.
Since forever I’ve known I was different, I don’t really want to say special, maybe just more influential over my envorionment.
When I was 3 or 4 I gained the ability to lucid dream as if it were nothing. In addition, as a child I was told how dreams never had anything in common, however I could always make my dreams into a series. This is basically just a start.
As I got older things typically always worked out for me somehow. I was always smart and charismatic. I always looked at things with optimism, even when others thought I shouldn’t or things were going terribly wrong in their eyes. I knew they’d work out my way. I’ve also always been able to persuade others rather easily. I easily skated through life and always wondered how little i could do and still reap the benefit.
Later in life in my late teens/beginning of my 20s I realized I could do things. I directed enough feelings of hatred and anger and hatred towards 2 family members and they wound up getting sick and dying one after the other within a year or 2.
Skip ahead to current times, I’m in my early-mid 20s. Things aren’t necessarily perfect, but not horrible either.
My abilities lately manifest themself as sort of visions of the future, usually the very close future. I’ll randomly have an idea, or word, or vision of something scratching in my brain waiting to get out and I’ll tell someone only for it to come true later. It’s also EXTREMELY specific. I was always a scientific person and there’s no chance anymore these are coincidences. This would happen almost daily for awhile.
I’ve found when I doubted my abilities they began to supress themselves, so now I’m done doubting. I’ve looked up other psychics to try and see what’s going on and it’s always pure bullshit i find. People who claim to see “guardian angels” or talk to dead relatives and thats not how this is working at all! I just dont want to be labeled as crazy as them. So what is this? Some sort of dark gift? Ive never practiced magick before. How do i hone this ability? Someone HELP