Well. I’ve been more consistent with pulling but not with documenting or taking pictures🙄 hate that for me.
March 15, 2022 (I didn’t do the 13th because it was family day and my day to sleep in🤣 the 14th is written in my journal here so maybe I will post it later. This was supposed to help me with consistency so GOOD JOB ALICIA, already slacking)
•Hello From Heaven•
This one made me smile… I was telling my boyfriend a few stories about my grandma that passed away before we met late last week and this card made me remember even though I can’t see her anymore, she’s still with me. Same with all of the family that I miss. It was a nice reminder and made me very happy. I want to develop my senses more in hopes that one day I’ll be able to communicate with them.
The Magician reversed.
My booklets keyword for this was deception. Now, this card made me anxious since I have a habit of assuming the worst a lot and thinking people lie to me or that they put on masks. Trust and believing in others is something I have been trying to work on in most aspects of life. So I tried to calm my nerves in assuming the worst and look some more.
One site talked about how this card can signify that you aren’t taking the actions needed to manifest what you desire. Which is exactly what I’ve been struggling with. Exploring, reading, and learning. Saying I will do this and I want this but never actually DOING it. Being unfocused and having untapped talents. This resonated the most with me. That I have the wants and the desire but have not been taking action. I make excuses. I say I don’t have time because I spend all day with my baby. But I know that’s untrue. His dad gets home and I’m free to do as I please. Just as I could on his days off.
What have I been doing instead? Binging The Walking Dead he gets home and all I want to do is relax and have some time for myself. Where I’m not being crawled all over, changing diapers, and dealing with a teething 9 month old that’s super cranky and clingy atm. I will never get better and achieve the goals I have if I don’t work on them.
It’s interesting that on the 14th my spirit messages deck once again gave me seek and study. I thought maybe I hadn’t shuffled properly but I had pulled cards for both my son and my boyfriend before myself and they came again for me. It’s like I’m being told on two different decks to get it together and go after what I want. Not just say it. DO IT.