In a trance meditation, I desired so deeply to know who I am out of my body and where it is that I come from. I asked out in the open as I saw darkness cloud over my vision. I saw the letters eunuciate /ˈviːnəs/ and spelled out Venus for me. There was nothing there until I began to percieve a faint glowing circle appear before me. Deep within the center of the circle was blackness and it rimmed a golden orange light.
This was an Invocation to my God form.
I looked into this black sun until what I heard next was a faint gentle voice say the name Amon Ra. I saw other planets such as Jupiter and Saturn with symbols of their astrology sign passing through. I knew this was all being spoken to me in symbolism. I’ve done my research and concluded that Jupiter is a morning star twinned next to the planet Venus which can be sought in sky together. Venus is the female aspect of Heylel (Lucifer) and Jupiter is a Roman God known in other pantheons as Zeus who is also equated to the Egyptian God Ra.
In another mediation visual, I saw the Egyptian name Hathor come through along with the image of the black Sun. The black Sun is also another symbolism for the meaning of the darkness center of the Sun as well as my last incarnation in ancient Egypt as a women with short black hair beautiful copper skin, decked in jewelry and a white dress. It strucked me odd at first. Venus is also equivalent to Aphrodite and Hathor. Hathor is the wife and mother of Sun God Ra.
It was as if I was being led and guided to the knowledge what I truly am.
This I do believe from the bottom of my heart because many years ago, I had a dream I was Venus herself with beautiful porcelain skin and long golden hair down to my waist. I radiated beauty and sensuality all about me. I was in luxurious bathroom and was going to bathe myself in a beautiful tub. Two fishermen were desperately trying to get their hands on me, to capture me away. I jumped out of the window bathroom and ran to canal only to transform into a fish.
This is all very synchronous to what a lot of things have been happening to me lately, hence the reason I joined this forum. Will write more in another topic.