As of now, my focus in to work with Hermes, and maybe later move to others among the Olympian gods. My ruling planet is Mercury, but I’ve always felt as if I lack certain traits associated with this planet that I should have. Without going into detail, I’ve come to believe that lacking these traits has caused lots of problems in my Youth. The inability to relate to others, communicate with them, express thoughts in appropriate ways, and overall feeling unable to navigate social scenes, has been frustrating. So much so, that I’d either display that frustration or isolate myself.
Within the past few hours, I’ve come to an interesting conclusion. From my point of view, other people seem to have this esoteric knowledge that makes them more successful. But the truth is some do but some don’t. However, what separates me from others is very simple. People form their ideal social circles and activities around what they feel comfortable with based around their own social ability. So, people with higher social skills may go to parties and big social events. Those with lower social skills may prefer smaller circles and more intimate get togethers. Frankly, I want to be the person who goes to parties and big events. But my social ability isn’t on that level. So, instead of me building my social life around my social ability, my goal is to build my social ability to fit the social life that I want.
Also, I’ve come to realize that the requirements for social success tend to evolve based around age. So, the requirements of high school differ from those of adult life. Why people say life gets easier after graduation, I don’t know. So, maybe Hermes won’t be enough. But for the time being, my goal is to connect to him.
I consider socialization important because humans are by nature social creatures. If there’s anything we’re supposed to do, I’d say this is the bare minimum. In my experience, inability to socialize and get connected can result in various problems. So, it’d make sense to say that being good at these things would afford oneself success. I honestly feel entitled to this skill. I mean, the world is big, life is complicated, and anything you do you are dealing with people. I don’t like the idea of spending the short time I have on earth trying to learn this skill when that time can be spent on bigger and better things. However, this is a necessary skill, hence why I say I feel entitled to it. So much time has been spent trying to catch up with people, and so much of that time has been spent trying to avoid problems caused by not being at their or an equivalent level.
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