Several days ago I had entered into my first official pact with a demon. Beelzebub. I asked numerous things from him. A few of these things being aid with my assent, love, and his patronage. Now ever since I made that Pact, there’s always a fly wherever I go.
Today was the first lesson I learned from him, and it was a very valuable lesson. One I needed, even though it hurt me a bit. I developed a crush on a guy I know, told him how I felt, he ended up telling me he was already taken. It hurt because I acted like a fool attempting to get with a taken man.
I felt awkward, began to break down, started to say I just wasn’t pretty enough for someone like him. Began to doubt my faith. Seems every time I get into a tough situation, I throw my faith out the window.
Beelzebub made me realize this, I immediately stopped feeling sadden by the news my crush gave me. Decided to act more optimistic, try to lower my negativity, considering im very pessimistic.
The only way I’ll find love, is if I get my shit together first, and stop seeking it out. For now. I felt like this was very important and crucial to the things I asked of from our relationship within the pact.
I certainly recremond anyone who needs someone to kick your ass in gear to go to Beelzebub. He’s been amazing thus far. May update this thread later on about the pact. Or I’ll continue it in my journal.
I hope you get what you seek.