When I have a thought I see somehing related to it in the material world. I know that many people get synchronicities, but at my case this is so much and radical.
Every time I open a book or refresh the lis of recommended videos, I get what is in my head.
Not what I want but what is my thought.
And I came across lot of facts that my life is planned before I was born.
I beleived from my childhood that this is a work of a spirit guide, but really I never get answers, but just my thoughts, which make feel lonely.
There are times when I just start to looks around a book and see that everything in it is like written for me or about me and datas are perefectly correlated with each other and with my life, and I just weep. And that also trigger other state of consciousness in me.
It is difficult to write down these crearly.
Can somebody tell me that even who can I be?
Because I’m fear from the reality very much now.
Angels/demons don’t come to me. With writing a letter, blood offering or pray for of hours. Despite my psychic senses aten’t the worst.