Before I get onto this post I realize just now auto correction was giving the wrong name when I wrote my last post. Then again it was early in the morning Iv also spent some time thinking rather or not to post this but I feel be good.
So when I made his sigil I had this really odd connection immediately. I just felt it pour from it and to me. For some reason I all the sudden had this urge to draw roses under his sigil. This would be the first time anyone wanted a specific thing drawn with their sigil. I had this image then of lush red roses growing from these deep green bushes that grew around this garden like area. It was covered in droplets of water and the air still slightly misty with light haze that was in the morning light air. As I came to I drew out the roses to the best of my abilities and felt happy.
After I got done with this I got ready for my first evocation to him.
So technicality this be my first evocation to Azazel. Despite him coming to me in the past, this be my real first time coming to him.
I grabbed three black candles, a red candle (my main evocation candle), his sigil and some incense. I only have frakensence and dragons blood.
I lit the three black candles that I put into a triangle formation around his sigil. I looked at it in a bit of uncertainty. I really wasn’t sure if I was ready. Not that I was afraid but simply knowing once I did this, this may take me to the next step of my journey. I sat there for a while, at times making a attempt to get the lighter only to stop. This be the first time me feeling this way. All the others, even ones completely unknown, I was exited or at ease. But with him, I felt completely different. I felt there was no pressure at all but there was a eager feel to the room. I finally got to the point I grabbed the lighter and lit the candle. I breath deeply and focus on my breathing. I lit the incense as a offering then started to evoke him. But then something happened. I laughed. I laughed SO hard. Out of nowhere I felt like I heard the FUNNIEST thing in the world. I try to calm and focus but to no avail. Eventually I was able to talk I stated how I needed to be serious and how I didn’t want to waste his time. I started to calm down and did my evocation with out anything more happening. I closed the ritual and thanked him for coming I definitely felt a more closeness with him. As I went to bed some time in the night I left like some one reached into my chakras and started to do something with them.
When I woke up the next morning I felt a bit different. My chest didn’t feel as heavy. As I walked outside to get to the main part of the house (I am renting a guest house) I then had this knowing that he wanted me to get more connected to the Earth and it’s energy.
I had this desire to go and find more info on him and when I found this, this honestly made so much sense as to some of my experiences I had with him.
Since this time I have felt different but in a good sense. Even though I feel a lot is coming out of me, most likely finally starting to release some of my old wounds but also making me a bit moody right now, I look forward to my second evocation tonight to him.