Hello all. I’ll start by saying, I don’t really post on here(but yes I did make an intro post already).
My precious sweet boy Leonard had escaped through a window that was left open, I won’t get too into the how other than the fact that this was because of an idiot whom I live with who doesn’t work but hides behind the lease so I can’t just boot him out, and this has happened before where he knew Leonard is an escape artist yet still left his door cracked and his window open with no screen, although in the past I’ve managed to be quick and catch Leonard before he got far outside. This time, Leonard got away and hasn’t been back, its been 4 days or so, he escaped on the night of the 11th, around 10:30 PM or that’s when I noticed that he was missing at least. He isn’t chipped or neutered, because of circumstances, and he never liked wearing collars and would always manage to get them off or rip them up, so he’s not wearing one either. I’ve had him since he was a little kitten, he’s around 3 almost 4 years old now. I’m just totally devastated, I don’t know what to do with myself, I’ve looked everywhere around the general area and a little further even, haven’t been able to get flyers or anything out yet but I have posted on Facebook groups in my area plus pawboost and nextdoor and all that jazz. I’m finding it so hard to stay calm, at first in a panic I scoured the search bar here already for similar cases, ended up calling on several entities at once but I’m afraid I might have just stacked too much in my panic, not even truly sure if I managed to reach any of them, those were Freyja, Bastet, Vassago, Lucifer, also the angel of lost things I found on here, also made a chaos sigil talisman that’s on my door. But lately, even before this, it’s felt like my magick in general hasn’t even been working at all, maybe I’m going about it all wrong. I’ve got so much anxiety going on, finding it hard to not just break down sobbing for my Leonard kitty. This cat is my world, he came to me at a time when I was feeling so lonely and brightened it, and now it feels so dark without him here safe with me and I just don’t know what to do. It feels like a piece of my soul was ripped from me, it’s only been 4 days so far but that’s 4 days too long, and I’m also just so angry at this idiot, who I’ve warned countless times, to just carelessly disregard everything I’ve asked, and now my biggest fear has happened and I don’t know where to really turn now.
Sorry if this is sounding like a sobfest but.. it’s my precious little cat, my Leonard kitty, my buddy, my companion. And I’m all alone in searching for him, I’m so exhausted physically and emotionally, I guess I’m looking for prayers, some words of encouragement, maybe some advice, I don’t know anymore. Thanks for reading.