9/12 d20
I know that I have shortcomings such as arrogance, impulsiveness, and lack of patience. I have always hidden them well, and these shortcomings have never greatly affected my behavior. But today, it feels like I can’t hold it anymore and I don’t want to hold it anymore. I am very hostile and aggressive towards others, speaking more directly and sharply, and I don’t even want to consider whether these words are inappropriate or harmful to others. I can also easily become angry.
I have also done divination two or three times for spirits who seem to be interested in me,
and the results of each spirit seem not very good. What exactly does it mean, they don’t even like me? I don’t know what to do.
I feel like the summoning today is a bit out of shape, unable to handle it as expected. I feel like I’ve been trying to hold onto it every time. When summoning, I am also more influenced by the outside world. I was already irritable, and this incident made me feel even more irritable. It felt like I couldn’t do anything well. I think I may need to take a break for a while, but I don’t have enough time. I will be busy with the final exams starting in December. I want to try to complete these tasks before the end of the semester and leave as much time as possible. And I also don’t want the side effects of the challenge to affect the month I was preparing for the final exam.
Today is really bad.
evoke pahaliah and purson. When I summoned purson, I was already in a bad state and was interrupted. I apologize to him for the bad behavior I did during this call. I feel that he is very gentle and understanding.