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End of day three: went to concert. Devoured the energy around me. Felt high. When introduced to aggression, I enjoyed it. Strength and balance, as well as perception were slightly higher than normal, perhaps due to adrenaline, although my mind and body were like this before any form of adrenaline would have been introduced. No invocation nor merging done.
A mistake was made in not merging as I said I would, but I am only human for now and unfortunately suffer fatigue.
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Opinion: godforms create culture, they don’t arise from it. 
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Possibly the beginning of the shaman/priest idea godforms are observed and interacted with by spirtual inclined individuals learned the relevancy to the world around them found a way to use these observations and what they were and it benefited and they gained personal and communal prosperity from developing relationship, personal or business with these forces on behalf of the tribe.
The interpretation given by the shamans trickle down and get distorted in places to the people less concerned with the spiritual but still benefiting from it as part of the community as myth.
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Merger completed, seemingly successfully.
@QueenOfHearts was present for it.
Whilst opening the gates, she experienced an atmospheric change in association with which gate was opened, despite not knowing which gate was where. Also felt energetic movements going into me. Saw a pair of eyes.
While opening the gates I felt pressure and tearing in my chakra points. Saw the gate open and my godform emerge. Saw his eyes… Staring at me… Saw his face…
Felt a bit sick to the stomach after finishing my part of the rite and had massive pressure in my head. Saw his paws in place of my hands, and legs in place of arms. Can feel Queen’s energy again. She says mine was so intense it hurt to put her hand on me to start. Tried to look into a mirror and saw me, then his head in place of mine, then my form turned into a werewolf and the mirror turned black.
Did not feel overwhelmed by the energy. Felt high. Pupils dilated massively. Instead of feeling like I will pass out as warned I feel awake as ever.
I’m not sure if this was a success, but it sure as hell seems like it @C.Kendall
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hey, awesome! 
congrats
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Thank you 
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Forgot to add, my nose felt wet and cold like a dog’s… So there’s that
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Listening to some hard bass while evoking is fucking intense. heavy bass+chaos essence=bliss
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I could use some lamb of god about now…
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Okay update my face feels like its trying to elongate
He keeps speaking and typing through me…
His energy is also leaking into my head through my third eye… I feel head high… So much pressure on my forehead…
I wish to open the child’s senses since he himself has blocked the world around him
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I’m talking about their masks. Either way, message came across clear.
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Everyone thinks of destruction as evil.
But my time spent with my godform has taught me that destruction is good. Destruction of personal limitations and insecurities. Destruction of hubris and idiocy.
This is something I have learned in less than 24 hours… He hasn’t seemed eager to devour all… Just the limitations of this world and all other worlds. He wishes to watch us progress, not regress, which is funny considering who he is.
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YES! you’re on the path of a destroyer. You’re getting the point.
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I’m glad his messages aren’t lost on me
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I can’t tell anymore… If its his voice or mine in my head… The only reminder of him is this immense pressure in my fucking head…
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Y’all the same thing now
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I continue to converse with myself in my mind… Maddening as I don’t know what’s going on. I didn’t know what to expect going into this… Hell I’m not even sure I know what I expected to happen…
The only difference I feel is in my head. The pressure. Passed that I feel like me. No different.
I can’t help but be human and be frustrated as I feel I’ve failed again. But nonetheless I continue.
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