Lately, I’ve been noticing something unusual more and more often. Do you know this tingling sensation when you feel the energy? I feel it more and more like that. On the arms, legs, head. And once completely the whole tongue (It was like a fizzy)
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The ritual of discovering feelings from Belial has begun again. There was a vision on the first day. ((I don’t want to describe the details of the vision. But I record the very fact of its availability)
Recently, I received strange words when I was just meditating on the Belial symbol. The day before yesterday I found out that these words are part of Lucifer enn. I’ve never been interested in them, but… maybe I should learn more?
I want to say that it surprised me a lot. I didn’t hear them like someone else’s voice, but they appeared in my thoughts. And it’s all weird
In general, I woke up at 1.50 with the thought of Lucifer, made an altar, read the litany and offered wine.I checked my Tarot cards. Emperor, good and clear answer.
I just asked him to help me learn magic and develop.
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Yesterday I was just doing chores in the house. It was necessary to drag a lot of things into the attic. Also cleaning up after the cats and two fortune-telling on tarot.
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Just a strange dream. A girl is lying in bed with me, she’s trying to kiss me. But I don’t kiss strangers even if it’s a dream. He says that this way I can let her in. After that, a man with short black hair and a green shirt appears near the wall. I know for sure in a dream that it’s not a person.
We probably need to clean the room after the magic work.
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All these things are so easily forgotten. So I’ll just leave it here.
So many strange things happened to me until I was 20. That I have tightly distanced myself from everything that is close to magic. I avoided such people. It seemed crazy to me and I even successfully forgot my experience. Art brought me back to magic. I studied the creation of sculptures and the expression of emotions through metaphors. It definitely broke through the first dam inside my head.
But I still avoided it for a long time. I bought a tarot deck just because of the pictures. And when a few years later I started to seriously guess every day. I began to feel the energy inside and the need to pour it out. Fortune-telling calmed me down. The light bulbs in the rooms began to deteriorate. And the plates were falling apart in my hands. Then obsessive thoughts that I should still learn magic, but I didn’t know where to start
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Now one person just sent me two magic books.
You remember that I asked Lucifer for help in studying magic, don’t you? I think that’s how it works.
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In the evening, I finished the third day of the ritual to discover my feelings with Belial.
Then for some reason it seemed to me that trying to work with a black mirror on the same evening was a good idea. I decided to try it together with Lucifer litany. Everything was going well.
And then, suddenly, the room lit up with fireworks. My neighbors launched fireworks. Damn, I jumped a little. And I also felt a sharp fatigue. I went to bed and just turned off. Then right in my dream I got dizzy. I woke up and couldn’t fall asleep anymore.
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Another night with Lucifer’s litany, incense and a glass of wine. I’m writing this to save one detail. When the incense burned, it was as if I saw smoke writhing above the glass, next to it. He didn’t disappear when I blinked.
In fact, it was something in the air. I left it like that for the whole night. In the morning, the image of an altar with an already empty glass came to my mind.
Before that, I was good at meditating during the day. I think it’s connected. I will continue my classes.
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Today, during meditation, I focused on the “screen” in front of my eyes (my eyes are closed) and clearly saw how the golden star moves along a certain trajectory. But from the emotions of surprise, the vision immediately disappeared. It was unusual. Very bright, very clear. And for a very short time.
I checked the records. Today is already 17 days of my regular work with energy, relaxation and meditation.
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Today I started reading Theodore Rose’s book. Here he describes working with paths to interact with demons. I really like what he offers and I want to try it in practice.
I really have a few internal and external needs that can be implemented with its help. And also, I think it will be a good workout.
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So, I had two very interesting dreams:
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I’m reading a book where instead of paths to demons - paths to dragons. Dragons there are not animals, but an expression of cere powers in our world
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I’m riding the escalator up, and there’s a branch on the escalator with demon names
And I’m definitely going to Belial. When I wake up suddenly, his name sounds in my head as if someone was solemnly singing it!
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So, I’m absolutely sure that I started to “hear” the spirits. Some short words have nothing to do with my thoughts and sound in a different key than the inner voice.
That’s exactly what I worked on in the Belial ritual. I also want to say that three days ago I started working with blocks between the heart and throat. There is still work left for several times. I think it’s all interconnected.
I think I need a rest now, because I also received information in a dream and my brain didn’t seem to be able to process it qualitatively and remember it. In good condition, I remember my dreams perfectly. In general, I take a few days off.
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The last time I wrote here, I got sick. I spent one day at work, the next at home, resting, sleeping and reading a spell for diseases. The next day I had to give it already at work. I already feel healthy today. Excellent effect with a minimum of drugs. Usually, if I start to get sick, it lasts 1-2 weeks.
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I always get what I really want. I was looking at photos from my past life. There was a lot of freedom and fun, constantly new people and acquaintances, a lot of ideas and eternal inspiration.
Now I’m where I have a lot of space, I can buy Tarot decks, a ritual knife, rubies for hobbies. The sculptures I created were bought in England, China, Germany.
But I can’t drop everything and go to the neighboring city for two days. I have more opportunities to embody something, to constantly learn. But all the books of people who share my views, who understand my aspirations. I literally have one friend left.
I get everything I wanted at some time, yes. And I don’t always understand what losses accompany these acquisitions.
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I had a break, during which I worked more in the material sphere. In general, I really needed money.
Also, I felt that my body and head needed to rest from practice and switch to something more physical, tangible
After the rest, I successfully summoned the spirit of the elements. The inner vision gave a ponch picture of his image.
Now my plan is to return to work with energy and also work on my body. I want to improve flexibility, endurance and lose weight.
Also, my plan is to create amulets. I want to study this topic and conduct experiments with forms and materials. This is my plan for spring and summer.