Day 0-1
In the late morning and the afternoon.
Where?: In the tram (with a certain lack of sleep, and at the very edge of sleep) on my way to some rural place, to help with gardener stuff/on my way back home.
Weird shit was going through my mind.
I was calm.
The series i just re-discovered by “coincidence”, it is called: “Jormungand”, and the first episode of each season starts with an invokation:
English:
I devour the five lands and drain the three seas, yet only the sky is impossible to reach. With this body lacking wings, hands, or legs. I am the World Serpent. My name is Jormungand.
German:
„Einst verschlang ich fünf Kontinente. Mein Durst schluckte drei Weltmeere leer. Allein der Himmel vermag es sich meiner Herrschaft zu entziehen. Wisset, mein Leib nennt nicht Flügel, noch Arm, noch Bein sein eigen. Ich bin die Midgardschlange. Ich trage den Namen Jormundgand.“
This came into my mind.
~Jormundgand could be an aspect of kundalini, or leviathan.
I bid that those two will play importend roles for me.
I felt something as i spoke that invokation.
~The both forces mentioned? Probably, but just a glimpse.
I remained calm, i didn’t had addtional strength, but it seems that it would have been worse without the “”““meditation””“”, i say that because my eyes -their brightness, is an indicator for my health and lifeforce.
Back to the series: the series is about a weapons dealer and her bodyguards,mercenaries, war, and funny and emotional stuff.
It fits very well into this “motivation is a false god, dedication is manhood” -thing, and the fact that my last option of all would be, to go to the military -with a someone, (so i wouldn’t be the only one in that mess) make the whole thing more promising. Fuck, i want and need guns in my life. ^^
I don’t know. -I actually don’t wanna try to meditate in a calm enviroment,
because that could/would leave me with expactations and shit
